nilai anda adalah seperti SAMPAH!

frankly speaking,the feeling is fading away

useless me,better be me and myself,all alone,back to way things were used to be,a very looong time ago.


*dengki org len dpt jd spesel,slh sendiri,damn useless.worthless mcm sampah!~
bodoh aku~

*sory,emo lg,abaikn this stupid blog.

you and me~

i have been sleeping with these songs for one month already:

1.firework,boyce avenue

2.teenage dream,boyce avenue

3.pieces dont fit anymore,james morrison

4.goodbye my lover,james blunt

5.you're beautiful,james blunt

6.gravity,sara bareilles

7.carry you home,james blunt

8.you make it real,james morrison

mostly from the same singers,same genre,lovin them by heart!
love.love.love
:)

emo.again?who cares?

nothing will change,a simple,stupid sorry is completely nothing at ALL.seriously,taking everything into the account,i'll say things won't go even further,trust is just a word,believe is just a form of 7letters which you might get when u mix them up together.the broken pieces are way tooo small,that u can't even break any of them into any tiny little piece anymore.swearing that you won't take things for granted was a complete huge lie.if you can't appreciate small little things,please go ahead and live your own life,those stupid thingy meant a lot to me,and will always be.

*sakit hati.kecik hati.i hate the stupid date to death,if there's a liquid paper which may erase everything out of my memory regarding that particular date,i'll buy it asap!~hu~sorry,emo,just need to share,u can click the X button at the top,right corner of the screen,thanx~

!

stupid me.bodoh.sumpah,last,and never ever!

lupakan~

tarikh dan angka...

sekecil mana pun mereka buat engkau,meski remeh kau pandang nombor-nombor itu,

tetap sangat berharga buat aku.

tarikh rasmi ?aku tak perlukan lagi,hilang nafsu disitu,lupakan saja,campak ke laut saja kata-kata dulu.

jaga diri,moga bahagia..

salam

dear beyh~:)

dear mohd nadzuan yahaya, u're turning 22 today!heehee!

and here i send to you warm wishes,that your happiness will be as wonderful as the happiness you have always given me,may the sun shine warm upon your face,may your smiles never fade away...moga Allah sentiasa memberkati tiap saat dalam hidup beyh,org doakan beyh sll bjaye dalam semua yang beyh impikan~

and last but not least,thanks so much for everything and not to forget,28th january,we're goin to be officially a year kn,hehe,hope everything will turn out great for upcoming years and years...

:)

wish you a warm happy birthday with lots of love,

org~:)

:)))

salam..

here are few recent news in my life:

1.bombing,again~and now,at the airport?=_="

2. made my first lemon chiffon cake~:)

3.spent the whole evening today,shopping with my mum,awesome!and had nice meehun soto!:D

seriously,am looking forward to have sisters' day out this wiken,sakinah is coming back on friday,and mr.midvelli,wait for us!:)~and do hope that i'll get a chance to meet wani,dilah and the rest semestarian's gang before going back to moscow,huhu~with weight reaching 58 kilos,all i can conclude is i'm a happy-bulat makcik who just can't help herself eating most of the time,lol. 

anyhow,someday,someone might come into your life and love you the way you've always wanted,if your someday was yesterday,learn.if your someday is tomorrow,hope,but if your someday is today,cherish!:D

and doing my best to cherish my "someday" because i've found the right "someone"already!:)

p/s:here are the lemon cake,not dat nice~haha!

kewl sunday!:)

had a great sunday with great companions and superbly,great food!

:D

home-made tomyam,kailan ikan masin,lala msk cili for dinner and big apple's donuts as my supper!

gonna reach 60 kilos by the end of the holiday,hahaha!

*matikudasai

*really want to upload some new pics~soooon kay dear blog!;)

*attracted to the pic few minutes ago,and told myself TO do my best for my future plans to go on DIET~!

haahahahahaha!

:D

ps: missing you~:*

plans to go!~insy!:)

few plans to go:~:))))

1.tomorrow: lekas highway,here i come!*praktis memandu ngn ayah*takot*=_="

2.ahad: broga hill with zawani rusli!!!a date which i've been waiting for sooo long~;)*eksited

3.nxt jumaat: tggu sakinah pulang and lepak kt midvelli mbazir duit bersama afiqah too~:D

4.selase: balik kampung,yuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!:)))~for 4 days and lots of great food will be waiting there!

5.another week to rest here

6.sabtu,12thfeb: moscow,here i come,again!wuhuhuhu!:)

:(

long distance doesn't suit me in any ways~

trust me,i knw well about this.

and plus,hate the fact that i couldn't be able to sleep nicely for the entire week here~

seriously out of mood.full stop.

weeeheeee!:D

what is happiness to you?

to be able to smile full heartedly,urm,by having someone who will always there,holding my hands tight whenever i tremble in fear,someone who will wipe all the tears and make me laugh if a bad person hurts my feeling~having someone who will smile while looking at me eating plates and plates of food.hehe~and i believe that at this moment i have many of those great people in my life,and am grateful for that,really and with that i shall conclude that i'm a FAT,HAPPY 22 years old big girl!heee~(^^,)v

why do you love to blog?

well,to be honest,it feels weird somehow for the fact that i'm a blogger right now,and recently,i publish posts very frequently as i believe almost everyday!hahahaha!the true fact is i do hate writing,yup!i failed too many times in my whole life in crearing a strong bond with words,haha~but somehow,playing with all these letters make me feel better and i do hope no one will read my blog somehow..=_="

one thing that never fails to bring back your smile whenever you feel grumpy?

CHOCOLATE,just name it~~dark choc,milky one,hersheys,cadbury,kisses or even alpen gold,i will never say NO for them,yeeeeehaaaa!:D~but as far as my taste buds concern,which they have been working nicely for almost 22 years old,milky choc with toffee and almond/hazelnut will be the top of the long list of mine!hahaha!they are simply the best!just had 4 of them today and they were just sooo PERFECT to keep me smiling the whole day~weeeheee! (^__________^)

one big thing that you fear the most in your life?

a broken family.divorce thingy and anything associated with that,and plus i hate the most men who can't control their anger and love to yell around~i just,hate them,sorry,no offence k~:(

your current state?

happy  with my beloved family around,grateful to be able to say that i am happy,eat seriously a LOT,and not to forget,missing someone in moscow sooo very much,that's all~:)

till then,have a happy life everyone!~:)

:))

trying to look NERD even i'm tooooo far away to reach even the N letter out of those 4-most-common-letters in a medic student's life~hahaha!

tadaaa~my NEW,nerdy spec will completely suit the NEW,MOST DIFFICULT upcoming semester!~
hope it will keep me for more hours in front of books instead of watching gossip girl,grey's anatomy,glee etc,etc...

:D

hihihihihi~nanti siap akan upload the NEW me!

and,amazing food i had today,and they both were my top listed glorious food in this world!

asam pedas pari and home-made char kuey tiaaw!terbaek dari ladanglah mak!

:)))))

p/s: beyh,xmau pijak my spec kt domodedovo airport nanti kay!because it is BIG and i know u'll hate it!~hahaha! and will update the blog everyday,until u'll bored to death,reading my posts,hihi~xoxo dear!

:))

completely shocked 2days ago with the presence of braces on my lil sis's teeth,haha,ok she looks different now and plus she speaks weirdly,hahaha,no offence kay,but am soo happy for you,because one of ur big dreams is going to become true,having a nicely arranged set of teeth for another 2 years,maybe?jealous a lil bit~haha!~

yesterday,i spent the day doing urm,nothing actually except for almost 16 hours of sleeping due to frequent attacks of headache.to be honest,i'm kinda lost my appetite,and this freaks me out a bit.huk.but no matter what,asam pedas melaka,the menu for today managed to bring back the real "monster" inside of me!!:D lunch was awesome!one of the main mission was accomplished!yeeeehaaaaa!~:)

last but not least,at 5a.m,everything went black while heading towards the toilet,and i ended up lying down on the floor.it was my first tym pitam,really,hu~menakotkan~huhu~

being here with no well-arranged plans at all to fill up the time,do hope the hols will turn out great!~:p

p/s: and to u,really do miss u~:"(

finally!;D

being home!after almost 13 hours of doing nothing on the flight,plus 6 hours of transit,finally,Malaysia,here I am!~weeeheeee~:D~ ponat actually but it should be nothing to compare with the pleasure of being here right? frankly speaking, it feels quite weird this time,maybe due to the very short gap of 4 months time  from the last summer hols,and without u around,but at the end of the day,you sounded like soooo fine with my absence,so i should concentrate about how to spend my hols alone with people here happily!yosh!should dissapear for a month i guess,yosh2x!:)

(^^,)v~care less,happy more,yosh!

p/s: plus got a sweet necklace from my mom,weee,so sweet of u mak,thanxie!xoxo

keju~:)

 tadaaa~my 1st home-made cheese cake for you mr.nadzuan yahaya!

:)

nampak cam ok ja,rase?i dunno because i DON'T eat cheese cake!haha!

and at this moment,my boo-cake is hibernating inside the fridge,waiting for tomorrow,do hope it will taste good,don't bother too much about the appearance,really..kui3

so,after almost 2 hours,trying my best for this,do hope you'll enjoy it tomorrow,really am sorry because i cannot be with you on 27th january,this blueberry cheese cake will be my first present for you in advance and the rest,wait for me on 12th february okay!:)

heee~and tomorrow will be the day,am praying hard so that you and all of our batchmates will do well tomorrow!

all the best everyone,pray hard okay?

love you all!

:D

d spartiv!~2 days to go!~

si keding and si bulat

SHOMEYL

*being forced to write this down

(^^,)

spartivnaya h0stel ,12.45am,spending the whole night here while counting the days back home is GREAT!~:)

at least,i enjoy spending the time with these whole bunch of people compare to being alone at home,d0ing nothing,haha!

1.54 a.m~still sitting beside that keding guy,for the sake of being his company since microbe will be in 2 days time.huhu,well beyh,honestly,you're not pushing me to write down this ok,because dear,i really am goin to miss you soooo damn much!hu~do your best,study hard,because ur effort is all that He counts ok?i know everything will be okay nanti dear!(^^,)~

orang nak mantok ni,nak pi tito~hee~nyte!

one more thing.

but should be no more

:)

4 days to go!

in our life,we can't get everything that we want,it's a fact,breathe with it or else,you will cry because of it.
though u did put all of your effort for someone,it doesn't mean that you can win his/her heart.
well,maybe just because the person is not what you expecting,doesn't mean that he/she is not the one you've been waiting for kan? perhaps someone who believe the same thing is waiting for you,somewhere,it's just the time that keeps both of you apart.

 i suddenly remember this,which was from my mum..
"go and find someone who wants you with all of his heart,not someone who you adore,or else you'll find out he-who-must-not-be-named will give thousands of reasons to leave you at the end of the day"~

to be honest,i don't need a new jacket for each winter sale,nor sushi for dinner once a week,or any material available in this whole word.the only thing that matters is fonding me with all of his heart like what najwa has stated on fb tadi"one day,you'll know i'm one in a million".
well,i prefer the only one out of everything,hohoho,demand,yup,I am~haha!:p

with this,i conclude that if i'm not your "the one out of all of the women in this land",well,maybe i should sit in a corner and keep on believing that my knight that i've been waiting for will appear in one bright shiny day nanti..

keep on smiling no matter how hurt it is,because one fine day,the pain will heal,even the scar will permanently there,who cares as it hurts no more..

counting days,
me.

5 days to go!

i'm not a good writer,and fail to express most of my feelings with words,well,words and me,we never made for each other.but still,i love blogging,haha!

ok,being the only malaysian in this room,with the absence of radhi is...urm,how should i put it,..lonely,i guess,huhuk..due to my own fault,who is basically reluctant to study ruski yezik,made me kind of a stranger here..hu~out 0f 10 words uttered by them,maybe 20% of them which i can truly digest by heart. the rest goes by putting them into the best interpretation that suits in the condition at that moment.

hahaha,silly me kan! =_="

should learn more or else,i'll die nodding clueless in 3 years time.dang!=_=""

hurm,spent a whole day,doing basically n0thing!huk,should take a nice walk out of the room tomorrow,sh0uldn't I? even if it means alone,i should go somewhere,take a fresh air,snap some pictures.

basically the idea of going home is great for s0 many reasons,but leaving u here for a m0nth doesn't feel so great,hu~and plus,i couldn't spend the days with you,f0r the exam's sake and yup,it is torturing,but it's ok, promise me you'll do ur best kay dear!always pray for the best for you!:)

ok,enough for today,should browse for my 3rd movie of the day!huk~well,watched ice age3 and you again before,they were nice,really~:)

bye,xoxo!

:)

skin graft surgery~:"(

dry+cold=skin pain=in need of skin graft

(T___T)

p/s: love spending the quiet night,listening to their covers,

it just...great~:)

:)

12 января до 12 февраля 2011

a month to rest my head away from this land which i refuse to love for any reason.

a month to smile,put all the tears away and laugh as loud and as much as possible.

a month to breathe freely,think about no problem and eat as much as i can.

a month to find back the meaning of life which i tend to forget here.

30 days to pick up all the strength from the beloved ones in order to pursue another few months here.

2010 ended with tears and anger overdose.time being wasted with nothing special to be remembered,
 too many memories to be regretted indeed.

may the new semester begins with a better spirit and an extremely high level of resistance. 

i wish.

well,i am in a mission of making my life more worthy to live,and pull myself back together to the one who i used to be,

with His will,of course,ameen...:)

waiting for 12th jan~:(

despite of feeling terribly bad and useless today,and having flu,talking to my mum and lil sis gave me few ideas about how am i goin to sped the great hols in malaysia!

first: my must-have foodlists! 

asampedas ikan pari!nasi dagang!gulai lomak cili api(ayam,udang,ketam,pucuk paku,or anytin),kerabu mangga dimakan bersama tomyam2 mantap,ikan bakar bersama sambal merah y terbaek,kangkong belacan,kailan dan rakan2 sayor bewarne hijau dll!hahahaha!

second: try to hold the steering wheel with my new,untouched P license which i got 1 day before i flew back to moscow..hahahha!:p

n learn how to drive to alamanda!

then,it will be easier for me to shop and catch some movies later!weeeheeee!

and last but not least,study id!haha!how i wish it will be for real!nvm,it's a plan rite?

no one knows what will happen next,hahahahaha!:p

tired of being a sampah to YOU,i shall pack my luggage and pray that 12th january will come by as fast as possible!

till then,have a nice day!

:)

i am happy,feeling good!~:D

topshop wool swing coat,awww~;))

i love the blue one so bad!!!huhuhuhu!

tp moscow ade ijau aje,sooon baby,u'll be mine!

♥

btw,td ade open house,makan nasik kerabu,best gilak,hahahahha!ngn spagetti gaul cheese ngn bebola bola daging ngn derek shepards pie,sirap biji selasih aka teloq kataq~hohohoho,sedap!!!

:D

had a great day today!

alhamdulilllah~

2011

 for me,despite of 2010 was the year with the most tears ever in my whole life...

still i found smiles through out the whole things..untuk semua yang menggembirakan sye sepanjang 2010, terima kasih dan maaf untuk segalanya~

lots of love,bello~

:")

mereka yang aku xpernah putus doa,moga senyum dan bahagia sll dalam hidup mereka~:)

housemates terbaek!!!:)

 

rakan2 batch yang selalu hepy and menggembirakan~:D

and to u radhi,who will leave me in kahov starting tomorrow,1/01/2011,

mohon maaf atas semuanya,siyesly,mintak maaf sgt weh~

huhu,harap ko xsimpan dalam hati,halalkan makan minum aku selama kite stay same2~

jage dri kat sne and moge ko lbey hepy kat spartiv,iA~

syg ko cmne2 pon~:")

and for you,nadzuan yahaya,meskipun xlame tempoh msenye,i hurt you in so many ways yang xd duit kt dunia ni mampu bayar untuk semua lebam ditangan,sakit di hati,

maaf for everything,maaf sangat dan terima kasih sbb bersabar with me~:)

sll doa y terbaek for both of us~

may 2011 brings a better year for you!

love,

:)