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Monday, 30 May 2011

cute~:)



 

"everybody knows how to love but only few people know how to stay in love with one person for a very long period of time"

~it's what love means for me~



one fine,bright day,i'll found that one person who i will grow old with~
:)



p/s:got colloq besok,xhingta ape,doakn2~:)



Saturday, 28 May 2011

if i can change everything~hu~

harini terase diri sungguh loser~huhuhuhuhu~

nak kaen selimut itam tutup muke kuat2




p/s: 2 budak u aku*setakat ni lah*bakal kawen julai ni and xschoolmate jue~hehehe,
happy for them!:)


Friday, 27 May 2011

ok,sesi merapu~


salam,
dah lame tak tulis proper post, i mean tanpe keemo-faggotan~beberapa hari ni,macam2 nak jadi,n aku pon asek dok meletop cam bom sampai sakit dade ak tak pernah nak stop,haih~salah sendiri asek naek angin satu badan~and hari ni,sbb lupe bawak 1 buku kecik yang xd function,aku dh bazir 3 jam kehulu kehilir,tak dpt pape~haih~=_="~xde rezeki,but still tadi mmg meletop gile la,penat kot weh,xkesah la mmg slh aku pon,but penat still penat~huhuhu~

bercakap ttg hidup kat sini,walaupon exam byk,ak tetap malas belajar..ye ye,aku tau,dh byk kali ak kate aku pemalas and ramai dok ckp ak rajin belajar,kdg2 rase nk letak depe dlm kandang hamster pastu letak atas meje stadi aku,tengok brape kali aku bukak buku dlm mase sehari and bape byk aku tido ngn melagho~ak rase pastu br depe nak terime hakikat yang aku ni pemalas macam beruang kutub,kenyang makan,tidur xpon layan cerite~hohoho~aku tau aku teruk~aku tahu~papepon,nak tak nak,ak kene settle jugak sume exams neh sbb nak balik Malaysia kottttttttt~sape xnk balik tanah air weh,lagi2 bile tmpt ni cm bumi takung segale tension and geram aku je~yea,aku mmg x pernah OK dok sini,aku mengaku,aku cume dok melayan je hari demi hari,buku demi buku tanpe perasaan aku kat semua yang aku buat,sedih kan,ye aku mmg menyedihkan..

urm,ha,dalam kekalutan segala bagai emosi turun naek,ade la satu hari ni,aku pakai skirt labuh.hahaha!tak percaye???ye,aku nabilahzawahid pakai kain weh,tu pon sbb kakak usrah ak bagi,xknla ak nk buat pekasam kan?hehehe~kawan2 aku mmgla tgok pelik semacam,haha,maybe xpernah tgok aku pkai kot or sbb aku pompuan kepoh y xsesuai pkai ken2 neh yang basically kat sini mostly org2 usrah je pakai,hahahha! wallahualam kan,apepon,ak xkesah~hahahaha! yang aku kesah adelah bile tym aku ondaway balik turun eskelator line kelabu,adelah sorg lelaki ni,dye duk bwh aku,pstu dok pusing2 blakang tenung2 muke aku,aku pon ape ag,watlah muke yang baekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk punyela kan,ape kes nak tengok2,xpuas hati ape?pastu pas dok belek sume jerawat2 kat muke aku,dye start dok pi tenung kaen aku,dalam hati aku mmgla sumpah xnak pakai dh ken pasneh!ape kes ntah~pastu dye start ckp :

lelaki tuh: awk pakai ken tak takot ke nanti terlekat kat hujung escalator tu*sambil buat2 gaye org tersangkut kaen kat ujung escalator~

aku: urm senyap kejap,lumpy pastu ckp ha,ye2,betul tu~sambil gelak2 kecil y xde motif

lelaki tuh: angkat lah sikit kaen awk,bahaye~*buat gaye sbb muke aku cm org dr kutub utare xphm bahase

aku: ha,baek2~*angkat2 kaen smbil mamat tuh tengok aku angkat ken tu*angkat bhgn pinggang la maksud aku

tibe2,

lelaki tuh: senyum manis,menawan kalbu smbil cakap,awk sgt cantik~smbil senyum and then tanye lagi,dr mane datang gadis cantik aka aku la tu,hahaha?

aku: sambil kembang ank pecah kaen aku pakai,hahahahahhahahahahaha: sy dr malaysia

lelaki tuh: ooo,sambil senyum besar last2 aku takot

hahahaha,then dgn hati berbunge2 aku pon cabot lari sbb aku takot sebnarnye~hahahahaha!~
motif y nak disampaikan adalah kegembiraan yang aku rasai tatkala org yang xcantik,xlawo cm aku ni dipuji cantik opps sgt cantik dr org y xdikenali~mmg super happy lah tym tuh,yela,mende yang boleh kate xd makne der aka dlm angan2 kau je nak dgr,jadi realiti~ohohohoho,mmg happy lah aku tym tuh,terus balik tersengih2 smpai ke rumah~hahaha~kesimpulannya,didalam kekalutan,keserabutan,ketidaksepenuh hatian aku mengharungi hidup aku saban hari kat sini,adelah jugak bende happy yang jadi kan?hehe~

oklah,merapu panjang,ak geram si fastpasstv ni dok buat hal,nak pi cari mende laen plak nak nengok~

till then,be happy!wassalam~:)




Thursday, 26 May 2011

dammit lah!!!!!

Tuesday, 24 May 2011

quickie~:)



my roomate told me,i always have this kind of face each time i'm in front of the lappy~hahaha!

wish i can look the same while i'm reading books too~sigh~=_="


p/s; lupe bgtau,masalah dengan jantung aku agak teruk,n once kene serang skang,mmg dasyat,nothing like before,siyesly,kuku jadi biru??????xley nk bernafas lam kelas,sakit dade mencucuk2,nak pitam tgh jalan? siapa xcuak,huhuhu~doakan aku baik2 saje ye,iA,balik ni g hospital check,and this time,i'll go to a cardiologist for sure,prevention is always better than cure right?hu~


and if i got probs with my heart,mesti xde org nk kawen ngn aku kan,tsk~:"(




Sunday, 22 May 2011

hard~

it's amazing when people can stop eating rice for two months and lost 6 kilos??????huhuhuhuk~ i guess i'm the only one who gained so much weight here~huhu~

it's 22nd of May already and i have 2 weeks to go before finals and too many colloqs to be settled and yet i put no effort more than before~hu~it's not that i refuse to stay up and wake up early in teh morning,it's just that i can't,my body isn't capable of that and my mind is too tired to memorize things at midnight~haha,lame excuses,i know,i know,haih~=_="~i sleep like a baby,really,10 hours a day,yup,i'm ruining myself slowly and constantly~

i'm adapting this whole new things that happening around me,and i can do it for sure!

completely refusing any feeling from getting near to me,and i'm going to face this my way!~:)



It kicks so hard, it breaks your bones,
Cuts so deep, it hits your soul,
Tears your skin, and makes your blood flow,

it's better that you know,
love is hard~


current song in my head!~hits my heart each time i listen to it,love james morrison to the fullest!~:D






Saturday, 21 May 2011

mother teressa



“The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved.”


Cabas CAMAÏEU
well,i bought this for myself!hahaha!lawa kan???:p



a great friday indeed!~:D



Meredith: There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.




nothing much to comment on but simply love it!
:)



not to forget,had a really great time with radhi today~heeeeee!thanx babe temankan!love you!mmuaahhss!:) 
we should do more another time!heee!!



Wednesday, 18 May 2011

hugs~



but pity me,i have none for a very long time.

counting days,may the strength will always be there to keep on pretending and keep on acting like everything is okay.just for another 2 short months.dear heart,i'm counting on you,be strong kay,please~




p/s:my posts here are undoubtedly emotional and full with disappointments and this will be continued until when,i don't even sure.sorry for the inconvenience~


Tuesday, 17 May 2011

:)



Meredith: Just when we think we figured things out, the universe throws us a curveball. So, we have to improvise. We find happiness in unexpected places. We find ourselves back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way. Sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong.





and here me again,hoping, and praying to feel better and sleep well like i used to before,once upon a time ago~and when happiness is way too invisible to be seen or to be hoped for,i will just pray for tears no more.



Sunday, 15 May 2011

great lyrics!





When you lower me down
So deep that I, I can?t get out
And when you're lost, lost and alone
Yes, you'd think it was the last place
You?d come back for more

If you don't want me to leave
Then don't push me away
You'd rather blow out the lights
You can watch it all fade
But I'm going nowhere

I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
When you're closing your eyes
Cause you don't wanna love me

I'm gonna stay
You can't push me too far
There's no space in my heart
Where I don't wanna love you

And when there's no, no storm
Then how can I feel the calm?
If there's nothing, nothing, nothing left to lose
Then what is this feeling
That keeps on bringing me back to you

So I?m gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
And you?re closing your eyes
Cause you don?t wanna love me

So I'm gonna stay, yes I will
You can't push me too far
There's no space in my heart
Where I don't wanna love you

If you ask me to leave
And I walked away
We'd still be alone
And we'd still be afraid
I'm going nowhere
im going nowhere

Cause I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
And there's tears in your eyes
Cause you don't wanna love me

I'm gonna stay
All the tears that I've cried
I could leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me
I could leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me




p/s: salute lah anyone camni,hebat and hebat! coz' i'm totally incapable of that~



Saturday, 14 May 2011

:p

saya rasa orang sekeliling saya risau andai saya jadi budak jahat~huhuk~



no entry~

kinda lost everything,EVERYTHING~and i'm the one to be blamed for,yup!

isolating myownself from the world,self destruction begins now..


please,do not enter for any good/bad reasons

thank you.



Wednesday, 11 May 2011

one fine day~



am waiting for the moment to come.....



Friday, 6 May 2011

:(

as easy as it is for you,i wish i could be the same~





Wednesday, 4 May 2011

:)

Tuhan cemburukan sayang aku,rindu aku untukNya,
mungkin itu Tuhan ambil kau pergi dari hidup aku,
mungkin buat tika ini sampai saat cinta aku padaNya lebih dari segalanya,
mungkin Dia akan kembalikan kau dalam hidup aku,
atau mungkin jodoh aku dengan insan lain pula,
siapa tahu,sebab Dia pemegang segala rahsia,cuma Dia tahu ajal,maut,jodoh pertemuan itu~
Dia pinjamkan aku rasa gembira dan dia ambil gembira tu,kerna mungkin,Dia bakal beri kegembiraan lebih dari gembira yang aku ada saat ni,
Tuhan,aturan kau sungguh yang terbaik,aku tiada daya untuk sangsi,selemah-lemah hamba aku pohon ampun~
cuma pohon kekuatan buat aku dan dia dariMu~

Monday, 2 May 2011

....




and i'm officially done with everything~



talked to my mom,made me feel better






p/s: soon will be off to tsaritsino park,iA~


Sunday, 1 May 2011

labor day=tido day!:)




it's 1 may already.

prepare yourself mentally!




p/s: i found it difficult when you have no one who can understand you~sigh~:(


;)


:)
love