desire

kl lah bile kite wish upon the shooting star for something,teros dpt kan best,i want the bag below badly!~haih~ duit tak ade,tapi hati mahu beli~~huhuhu~

btw,harini,makan best gile,beriyani terbaek dr ladang!siyesly my mum cooks the best beriyani ever made on earth!hahaha!~rse cm terharu gile dpt makan,fuhfuh!~ 

tadaaa!nyumehh!~haha!***gile xd idea nk tulis psl ape,have a great ramadhan semue!

bags!

*droling for these bags*

the end of a week in serdang hospital! all i can say,really cant wait for another 2 upcoming weeks to end!fuh2!basically today was a half day session and the upm's students whom i joined their classes in the a&e dpt just ended their sessions today,and it was sad,i lost few friends to talk with and just can't imagine another two weeks meeting up with new people over and over again~seriously,i'm the only clueless third year student wondering every abbreviations that they are using,urgh!it's hard when you're the only lumpy one there,huhuhu! 

today,my sisters and I made some raya cookies,samprit to be exact!i'll post up the pictures soon,they taste really nice btw!hehe!

and i really am sorry for all my emo posts,just really need to tell someone,and when there's no one left, writing all those feelings out really works out well!i'm so disappointed,heart broken and feeling so hopeless at this moment,and i just hope things will ended up in the best way.if letting everything go is the only solution,no matter how hard it will be,i should consider doing it asap!the pain is too much!~

quickie!

totally agree!one fine day,one fine day....

salam,it has been a while since the last time i wrote my heart out here,well,i've started my practicals in hospital serdang last monday,and tomorrow will be the end of one tiring week!huk~it's getting boring every single day,and i just have no interest at all to continue another 2 weeks!!!i'll die eventually,i guess~having so many problems that bother my mind each and every single day,i just hope things will end as soon as possible,there's nothing left to work on since fights and screams are the only conclusions of every questions and discussions. no more reason to stay,no more feelings left to hold on...

well,just wanna wish selamat berpuasa,moga puasa kita tahun ni bertambah baik kualitinya compared to previous years~iA~take care people!

...

perempuan yang baik2 untuk lelaki yang baik2~

just not good enough for you and will never be.sorry for the inconveniences. i know,being with me was too much for you.leave me for your own good sake.a better woman,a great one is somewhere out there for you,i'll pray the best for you,live a great life.

i owe you too much,i always aware of that,thank you and sorry for all your pain and suffering.

p/s: hukum karma.what goes around come around.

learnt my lesson!

don't choose the wrong person unless you want your heart to be broken again and over again.

even a time machine can't heal the pain and chase away the memories of being hurt deep inside by the person you gave your heart to.

it is a lesson to be remembered.

make me smile,will you?

when i have the worst days of my life or out of good moods,these absolutely will lighten me up.

well,i need one of them a.s.a.p~

the most productive day!~:)

the cuppies!heee!first time we finally made them,the cakes' taste are just nice,just got some problems with the frosting,we used blended castor sugar instead of icing sugar,and they turned out tooo sweet!~huhuk~within 2 weeks time,i can proudly say that i've spent the time with the most activities today!hee! from the morning~cooking,folding up the clothes which have the resemblance of everest mountain,haha~taking care of the fishes(ikan laga 2 ekor,ngn ikan haruan),baking the cupcakes,and etc2~hahaha,normally i just laze around the living room,and watch anything~hehe~well,no wonder my weight reaches 60kilos!haih!i really just can't stop eating,huhuk,it's a chronic disease of mine and i just cant get rid of that habit!

well,this week is completely a tiring week just because i have to start driving the car~huhu!~my practical will begin next week,and no matter how i hate sitting on the driver's seat,i have to start practising or else,i'll end up not being there on time!~huhu~my mom said my hands trembled worse than people who has parkinson's disease,it really was upsetting~

may i have enough patience to drive the car!~huhu~

(^____^)

well,people don't actually warn you straight to your face to stop acting stupidly or else he'll get bored with you.not to the opposite sex,i guess,it's cruel,yup~

and as what my little brain concerns,people don't do such thing especially when there's not even a string attached between them.

you just gave me a gloomy view of the future,and for helping me to figure out the worst possibilities that might happen,i thank you.

teehee~:D

a happy girl!~:)

2 minggu aku di Malaysia,and boleh kate ak dh shop dkt 5 helai baju!hahahaha!including my very first time shopping experience through on9,.well,I just got the very first parcel today,n guess what,am completely satisfied with the material~:)~

and 2 more nice tops,jeans and my baju kurung kaen*a present from someone*:)~

i'm a happy girl,and plus,not to forget my practical will start on the very 1st of August,and all 5 of us who applied for the hospital serdang are sorted into different department and guess what? i got the busiest department of all,the emergency dpt!i'll die for sure~huhu~need to start memorizing all the normal values and drugs or else i will get scolded by the doctors for sure!and it will be the puasa time,wish me luck!

pinocchio~

so ladies,beware of mens' noses~hahaha!:))

(^^,)~

wujud ke?still dont believe in that~hahaha!beauty comes first kot~haih~

btw,harini aku lapok2 ngn adik2 aku kat midvelli,beli baju raye la konon,baju moden,hahaha,taun ni ktorg sepakat xnk beli baju kurung sbb pkai setahun skali je,so ktorg pon decide duit baju kurung buat pi beli baju2 len,hahaha!dr pg aku kua,end up beli sehelai j blouse,sbb ak dh 60kg+++ kan,so susahla nak carik baju ha~huhuhu~cesz,zmn gelap kegemokan kembali~(T___T)

and the highlight of the day was i watched my superduperforeverandever faveret movie td,HARRY POTTER!!!the best thing is it was perfect!i loved every sec of it,siyesly i need to watch it again and again!~heheheh!but sadly,it was the end of it!~hu!~agaklaaa sedih,yela,tiap taun keje dok nunggu je die kua,tup2 pasni dh xd ape utk dtunggu~huhuhuhu~

nway,i had a great today even though my foot melecet cm ape je~*pakai kasut xreti nk pakai socks*hahaha!~hopefully,i can drive sooon!~

till then,xoxo!~:))

:)

currently in malaysia~love every single sec of it even though most of time were filled up by eating,sleeping and watching tv~hahaha!i'm gonna reach 60kilos and at this rate of my living style,absolutely going to go beyond that~

xoxoxo~:)

day 15

Day 15 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to

hanazakari kimi no etachi~hahaha!my 3rd tym dh neh~:P

btw,harini aku p tdoq spartiv,besok nak balik dh,xsaba gile!!!fuh fuh~brg dh pack,sume dh siap~siyesly,this sem mmg penat gile and ak dh hbeskn 6hari tggu besok ngn melangut~haih2~

doakan aku slmt smpai~have a great day people!~:))

day 14

Day 14 – Who are you?


nabilah mohamad zawahid~22years old~a doc gonna be,with His will~


still searching for her true self,and trying all of her best to put a smile on her face when life gives her lemons.


may the tale of her life is something to be remembered not a life full of regrets.

fat me,hahaha!:)

day 13

Day 13 – What kind of person attracts you?

sweet,sweet,sweeeeeet~tak menipu~sanggup dgr me my endless stories with smile on his face~sanggup layan my childish behaviour~xmarah~xske jerit~buat me gelak byk2~xbuat me nanges,tp kl ye pon,snggup pujuk balik~xskodeng pompuan laen even though i'm so ugly and fat~baek ngn his family,syg dorg sincerely~xtinggal solat~baek~baek~baek~xboring~tinggi and besar from me,tu wajib!!n etc etc etc~heeee~

well the list will never end kan?for everyone pon,i just dont mind how he looks like,just let him be the one who will guide me to Jannah,iA~a huge dream right??

day 12

Day 12 –  A photo of something that makes you happy

meet my 3 cute babies~^^

...

lemas.sakit.i just wanna gooo home~:"(

...

u're going to be single for the rest of your life,so stop wasting your tears!

stupid me.

day 10&11

Day 10 – A photo of the item you last purchased.

macaroons,finally,the taste really doesnt fit the price~

Day 11 –  5 facts about you.

1. officially a 4th year student!yeeehaaaaawwww!goodbye painful 3rd year!~:D

2.eat a lot and never stop,because i simply can't and as the result,i'm a big fat cow right now~

3.talk a lot and very difficult to find the fullstop.:p

4.takot hantu mcm ape,xley tido kl xd peneman,xley tdo kl tgkp terbuka,xly tdo kalo lampu pasang,xly tdo kl ad bunyi pelik2,and xpernah tengok ju-on,hahaha!

5.sll beli barang yang pastu mmg tbe2 xberkenan n xpakai langsung~mbazir~:p

...

when there's nothing left,the only thing that stays is pain.

glad it's over

;(

boleh x diam untuk 2 hari,aku nak belajar!urghhhhh!

day 9

Day 9 –  Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

of course single~n now available!~yeeehaaa!well,what can i say,i should be more careful in treating my dear heart well since i might end up giving it to someone who his heart is other's again.well,hard for such a weak,dependent person like me to face this difficult life alone,but if others can do it,why can't i right?and Allah is there,always~i've spent too much time,hoping for things which will never going to be mine,and dear nabilah,just stand up strong and you know what,one fine day,there will be someone who will take all your weaknesses and willing to be with you,just you,not thinking bout another girl when he's with you.enough of being so stupid and stop wasting your tears to anyone who don't even like you.life is beautiful,enjoy each second of it,stop crying and hope for something better.

2 days to go,my last paper and 10th july,i'll be flying home,just cant wait!

day 8

never try to compete "perfectness" when you're just a loser in everything,

cause you will fail,FOREVER.

p/s: day 7: A picture of your favourite memory

~ trying hard here to forget the best memory in my stupid brain so sorry,no picture to answer that question.

pengajaran: stop liking that someone,dont be stupid,:)

day 6&7~haha,mengelat,sory,got exam today!:p

day 6~A song to match your mood

i love this song toooooo much!hahaha!great song,super great singer,i love her,i think she's so pretty!~:D

day 7~A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet

the truth is i never fond of having animals as pets.they are cute,really in photos or in zoos,hee~

i'm a cruel person,hahaha.

day 5

what makes you different from others:

i'm a girl with the smallest amount of girlfriends in the world.

for me,having girlfriends who you can spend all your laughter, sadness,and being stupid with is very crucial to complete a girl's life.girlfriends are the one who will understand you the most,yes they are,huhu~

and for that,i blame myself,forever.it's the biggest mistake ever,and now i'm more than the most pathetic lone ranger in the world.

day 4

nu'ur fatimah baharruddin,

seeing you smile is more than enough to make me smile too,

even if i was crying at that moment,

you know well which particular "moment" right?

heee,

and for that and all wonderful things about you dear,

thank you soo very muchosss for being there for me,always 

and i do hope you'll stay,

forever,

 i love you till akhirat syg!

p/s: the question is ur fav photo of ur bestie!hehe!:p

day 3

salam,

urm,to be honest it is indeed a really hard one,since being different from most of girls in this planet,i never have a thought about how my first date should looks like,since i never think about having someone liking me,or going to marry me,yeah,this has been in my mind since i was a kid,and in fact i'm still thinking exactly the same way.and i even have a plan of adopting a child if i'm way too old and there's still no ring on my jari manis at that particular time,haha!~

but here it goes,still have to answer the question right and i just came up with this,at this time of my senile age,and my unstable mind and emotions,hehehe..

i wish i would have a first date,in a place where no one knows me,and it's way better if there's no one else,just us and i wanna have my very first moment with that ONE ring which i'm going to wear for the entire of my life~and it should be here:

we're married kot,so boleh laa kan?hehe.

p/s; it's not going to be my first of course,it's a dream,yeah,i'm not a good girl,not proud of any of that~huhuk~but am trying so hard to be one of the good women,and have a decent life with the best guy who will lead me to Jannah iA~it's everybody's dream right,and mine too despite of my worst attitudes and etc etc~heee~:p

till then,salam~:)

aku perlu pisau,kapak,segala bagai benda yang tajam

hulur aku apa2 saat ini,

aku mungkin akan bunuh semua,

skali lagi aku ulang,

semua.

day 2

salam,

a very easy question indeed,so here it goes,

my fav movie is mr.HARRY POTTER,and i'm a freaking huge fan who watched each of them 10times at least! hahaha,i'm a freak,u can call me that~:p

* today,after 2 days pampering myself with tonnes of movies,i finally went out and took a walk.well,pharma was a torturing paper,and to touch a book right now,is none of my interest.haha!so lazy me right?and peeps, today's lunch was korean food yawww!haha! had fun eating nasik sotong,sedaplah jugak~and got myself a yves rocher's shower foam for myself,haha!there's nothing really special about this shower gel,so lame blogging about it indeed,it's just that i wanted it so bad just to boast around to my roomates who most of them using this brand at home!hahaha!well,i never afford to buy expensive stuff like this,i'm way too pokai right now,and this one is a present of course,thanxie!!! finally,my mission to walk proudly while carrying this bottle after having bath is achieved!~haha!~perangai terok,hohohoho!~

super wangi btw,love it!

day 1

day 1~:)

a very difficult question though,took me some time to sort the best of of too many of them,

but here it goes,

my forever favourite song will be: you make it real by james morrison

*well,i love all of his songs,great singer,great voice instead.

*just went back from a lunch with vika's family,she's a russian,and just finished her 6th year here,and her whole family are here~hehehe,sometimes,it feels great knowing people out of your radar,even i just stood there,trying my very best to understand each word,well,of course i failed many times,still it felt good~:)

can't wait to be home,like seriously!~

:)

30 Things in 30 Days Challenge



Day 1 — Your favorite song
Day 2 — Your favorite movie
Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.
Day 5 – What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 6 –  A song to match your mood.
Day 7 –  A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 8 –  A picture of your favourite memory
Day 9 –  Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 10 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
Day 11 –  5 facts about you.
Day 12 –  A photo of something that makes you happy.
Day 13 – What kind of person attracts you?
Day 14 – Who are you?
Day 15 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 16 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 17 – How you hope your future will be like.
Day 18 – 5 things that irritate ME about opposite/same sex
Day 19 – A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 23 –  Your dream wedding.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – Short term goals for this month and why
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you want to go.
Day 27 – A picture of your favourite band or artist
Day 28 – In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

let's try this~tgh boring and having no idea what to write~:p~

p/s: just for fun,it's ok if no one going to read,i'm a lame blogger~haha!

pompuan

salam,

when a girl says "its okay","i,m fine","don't worry about it",it's simply not okay,she's nowhere near fine and you should definitely worry about it.

and plus,we hate too much questions,why don't sometime try to think with your own brain coz it really does't even cost you a dollar~

it's my fav drink right now,super sedap lah!~:D

ok,haha,tepat!~

cantik!

keri russell,

my forever sweetheart~

haha!

p/s:: watching august rush is a must to anyone who haven't seen it!great movie like seriously~:)

forever crush~

Declan: I don't want not to make plans with you. I want to make plans with you. 
Anna: You do? 
Declan: Yeah I do. 

ok,my 2nd time watching this film which is leap year brought me to the same feeling of melting like an ice cream in a hot sunny day and the only word that came out of my mouth was oh you handsome man,oh...so handsome...and that one word was uttered spontaneously again and again~why??? coz he's too gorgeous,too kacak to be true,the jambang is so hot~blue hot eyes,oh my,i keep on falling in love with this matthew goode~

(yes,yes,mood super gatal,i cant resist him,that's it.period.) 

for you,you know who you are~

and F.Y.I,even though u were the one who did that "super cool" thing,you don't really have to jump over the moon and keep on bragging about how i was soo pathetic back then. maybe i used to react like i was soo desperate ever before,but just read this carefully----->

it was a huge mistake,a freaking worst regret ever!

get it?

fullstop.the end

salam,

well,i just passed my another paper,and guess what,only 3 to go and i will be freeeeee!~for whatever had happened today,all that i can say is alhamdulillah~and well,just right after the exam,we went out searching for food,and instead of x kenyang,haha,we ended up in a new shopping mall,and the huge matrioshkas~heeee~

my new shoes btw!~:)

kilos and more kiloss~

                       these are part of sooo many reasons why i keep on gaining weght~huhuhu! =_="

1 month to go!:)))

assalamualaikum semue!*eceh,mcm ad je "semue" tu~haha!

"When a husband and wife look at each other with Love, Allah 

looks at both with Mercy" [Bukhari 6:19 & Tirmidhi 14:79]

fell in love with this~well,it's almost july and it's wedding season you all~

heeeeeee~:)

i guess almost 5 of my dear friends are going to tie the knot soon,congrats guys,

may Allah bless you and your life partner till Jannah~

insyaAllah!

:)

radhi's new baby,heee~si comeyll~rase cm nak makan~haha!:D

khamis!~:)

salam~

today,my roomates treated me a huge pizza!hahaha!even they don't even like seafood,yet they still bought it for the sake nk belanje me~so sweeeet of them!!

well,there's nothing much to say,i've been spending the whole day listening to mr micheal buble while studying*well,i guess most of the time my eyes fixed on his cute face instead of looking to the words on my patanat book~hahaha!~i should lie down for a while,my back is aching soo badly!~hu~

orang kate kalau kite share pape ayat yang baik untuk ingatan n pengajaran,tu sekecil2 usehe kite untuk tunaikn tanggungjawab kite kan~:)~so here it goes:

"Dan kepunyaan Allah-lah timur dan barat, maka kemanapun kamu menghadap di situlah wajah Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Luas (rahmat-Nya) lagi Maha Mengetahui." - [Al-Baqarah : 115]

~it's exam fever right now,for whatever the result is,just remember usaha,doa,tawakal dan syukur with everything!~hehe~reminder for my ownself too!~all da best fellow friends!xoxoxoxo!

let go...

,,,

happy me,once upon a time ago~

:")

miss her,really~

quickie~

assalamualaikum,

it's been a while~yup,really am so busy with hectic-finals' fever!gives you no time to rest properly~ alhamdulillah,finished all zachots' hunting today,and only God knows how relieved i was once my topan's teacher signed my zachot's book!fuh~it's final this wednesday you see,but yet some of us still struggling to pass all the tests aka credits to get ourselves to the final~huhu~

clueless actually about what to write down here,hehe~nvm,just pray the best for me and my fellow friends will ya?will put all the efforts,may Allah ease everything~insyaAllah~He always knows the best and put all the faith to Him~YOSHA!!

it will be nabilah instead of monica,great right?heee~

sooon~

heeee~thanks mak!

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trust NO ONE even if u have to fall down in pain~