post topan,pre pain

for the result i had today,alhamdulillah~for all His blessings,alhamdulillah~

finishing my topan (topography anatomy) exam means no more sufferings as far as the subject itself received everyone's approval as the hardest one ever~hahaha!frankly,i'm on my honeymoon starting from today!yippie!:)))~will be missing prof nikolaev,so much,he's the best teacher ever,and all my respect goes to him,since he taught us with all his heart.

anyhow,on the other side,i'll have to bear separation,again.sigh.it's hard,and when my insecurities strike,i'm just giving up.the bitter fact is i have nothing to offer.for that,i know there's no room for me to complaint.if only i can block my brain from thinking that losing is the only possible thing that will happen,i'll do anything.seriously.mental depression will start soon,and frankly i rather face bundles of topan's notes than getting hurt day by day.sigh.

for tomorrow and the days afterwards,i should start searching for a big supply of happy pills i guess.sigh.(3rd time here)

for acting this way,now and onwards,really am sorry.