fatness!
hideous!
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ok,it bothers my mind lately.i eat too much,stupid me again,never learn how to minimize my rice consumption.nvm,let's skip to my life here.everything is basically the same,wake up early in the morning,go to class,talk to no one,go back home alone,surf internet,watch my fav series,and truthfully,that's it..life here is nothing but facing it soullessly.i blame no one but myself for it.i don't even seek for something that will cheer my life up.i get disturbed with small things.everything just seems bigger than how it should be.i start to envy everyone around,hate myself for not being thin,pretty,clever etc2.
and especially today,when the stupid inferiority complex has been launching it's missiles without mercy up until now.ok,am exaggerating much right? well,i just opened few of my friends' blogs and i saw these,headshots maybe?huhu..
1. my dear wani :
i'm not popular,but i have good friends. i'm not rich but i have what i need. i maybe not be liked,but i know that i'm loved.
*am i loved by anyone,huhuhu~cm xdok je,huhu~
2. famous blogger: perfect recipe to be beautiful
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry I don’t have the most perfect skin.
I’m sorry I don’t look like a Victoria Secrets model
I’m sorry I don’t have the best style.
I’m sorry I’m not tall.
I’m sorry I’m not perfectly skinny- 5’7 nor 100 pounds.
I’m sorry I have stretch marks here and there.
I’m sorry I have bad hijab days.
I’m sorry that I’m plain.
I’m sorry my eyebrows aren’t thin and perfectly trimmed.
I’m sorry my face isn’t caked in make-up.
I’m sorry that I can never meet society’s standards.
But you know what?
I don’t need to care about society’s criteria.
I don’t need people to tell me I’m beautiful.
I don’t need compliments to make me feel better.
I don’t need a superficial love that can’t withstand a stretch mark here or chub there.
I don’t need to keep sinking into a never ending pit of low self-esteem.
Because I looked to Allah, and He told me the perfect recipe to be Beautiful.
Not just temporarily, but forever.
“And the servants of the Most Merciful are those who walk upon the earth easily, and when the ignorant address them [harshly], they say [words of] peace,…” [25:63]
“And [they are] those who, when they spend, do so not excessively or sparingly but are ever, between that, [justly] moderate.” [25:67]
“And he who repents and does righteousness does indeed turn to Allah with [accepted] repentance. And [they are] those who do not testify to falsehood, and when they pass near ill speech, they pass by with dignity. And those who, when reminded of the verses of their Lord, do not fall upon them deaf and blind. And those who say, “Our Lord, grant us from among our wives and offspring comfort to our eyes and make us an example for the righteous.” Those will be awarded the Chamber for what they patiently endured, and they will be received therein with greetings and [words of] peace.” [25:71-75]
Ya Allah, when the world criticizes me a million times over
Ya Allah, when the world keeps telling me hurtful things
Ya Allah, when the world keeps pushing “ugly” at me.
Give me the courage to hold firm to your Deen.
Ya Allah, as long as I am beautiful to you, nothing else matters.
Ya Allah, even when everyone leaves my side, let me take comfort in the fact that
You are closer to me than my jugular vein [50:16]
envy how people can open up their hearts and believing how physical beauty is just temporary,what matters most is the beauty of the heart~it's just so ungrateful of me,questioning what God has been giving me all these times~for that i have amazing people in my life,who keep on loving me unconditionally,including you,i should ask no more..
hu,pray for me,to be better,wassalam.
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