sometimes,you just can't help yourself from feeling so alone and unwanted.especially when your own friends *very few of mine* forget your birthday,don't even bother about giving you presents or even wish you.but that is still nothing compared to the feeling when someone so dear to your heart/bestie/whatever etc2 told you that she doesn't even have a friend around her that she can look up to.a friend that can be a reason for her to be better.yup.a huge slap on my face,and seriously,it hurts a lot,more than failing my ophtal exam,or anything equals to that.and i did cried,and am still crying,hardly.sigh.
and at this very moment,my inferiority complex just take a rule of my life back.and here you go,sorry for feeling this way but it just how i see myself in the mirror.all i can see is a reflection of a girl who is just nobody to anyone,stupid medical student who just failed her ophtal exam, a damn bad girl who is just an eyesore to everyone around her and definitely so hideous and freaking ugly person who just worth NOTHING.and to tell you the truth,i hate myself more than anything.
it's definitely a very unhealthy post to anyone.stay away from my blog for a moment i suggest.sorry.
and to my friends,i'm sorry for being a bad friend of yours.sorry for being completely useless. sorry for having a friend like me.
4 comments:
knape aku terase dowh bace entry nih..ko bukan ckp sal aku kan..huhu
neway pasal ophtal,im not the right person to tell u dis since failure is like my nature..but i talked to a senior and he said failure isnt that bad cuz it will teaches us to be stronger which is really important during HO nnt..i know how u feel,been there few years back when i got pended for my very 1st time,sgt frust n sedey..but be positive,with this new lesson,we will be more sensitive and alert with our study..so keep it up and dont blame urself too much ok..
*datang party aku ahad ni ok..any excuses takkan dilayan..
hehe,tula,xbg aku hadiah,wish pon x,heh!:p
kl xd ppe aral,iA ak pi kay~thanks neway wadi!:)
ahaha da besday ko time raye kot,camne nk wish..haha bz beraya..hehe
uih takleh2,ade aral pon ko kene datang gak,aku masak lebey 2pinggan kot bajet tok ko..haha
u forgot someone dear. i do look up to u. failures teach us to get stronger and better, if you put them in a right place. don't be sad, my life suck more than you have. cheers~
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