:)))))

red one from sisters~♥

beautiful pink roses from him~♥

every single breath is a bliss,thank you God~alhamdulillah~:)

igtn~

"Maka sifat sabar itu adalah sikap yang baik, dan hanya Allah sahajalah tempat meminta pertolongan" 
(Surah Yusuf:18)

hidup,

kalau sabar itu tunjang akarnya,

insyaAllah,kukuhlah ia.

sabar itu,

mudah diungkap oleh lidah,

namun,

sukar menapak di hati,

pepatah Melayu ada ungkap,

di mana ada usaha,di situ ada sinar kejayaan,

Tuhan pun suka hamba yang tak jemu usaha,

betulkan niat,

perbanyakkan doa,

syukur untuk nikmatNya,

insyaAllah,terpupuklah ia~

aku hadapi masalah ni,peratus berjaya bila ada dalam situasi yang perlukan sabar itu mungkin 10%?
byk kurang,sana sini~

moge dipermudahkanNya~amin~

it was a great sunday evening~:)

briefly,i had a really great evening with ainur and radhi~heee~sayang korg sooo much lah!!mmuahhhxss!hehehe~

there were nasik lemak yang amat sodap,specially made from spartivnaya and plov,russian food cooked with love by ainur~:D~the food were awesome,and i ate a lot like hantu~hahahahahhaahhahahahahhahaha!~

had a great girl talk and we laughed like crazy,hahaha!and plus,i even had my eyes being make-up for the first time in my entire life!

it was awesome~:)

radhi,me,ainur and azhan*the one sitting on the floor~

BUZZ!

anyhow,just wanna alarm myself,that i should not take any egg this week,and of course 2plates (maximum) of rice for this whole week plus vegies everyday!seriously,i'm getting too fat,and let's not talk about the cholesterols,sigh~=_="

 and before things becoming even worse,precautions should be taken wahai nabilah!

(T___________________T)

stick to the rules or else....you know what will happen~

late nite~:)

human being basically has his/her own limit and so do I.

and unfortunately,i reached the peak today,sorry for those who might be concerned..

it was way too much for me to handle just now..

well,nothing so special going on around me,and i really miss to snap some pics,

winter is over,but the snow is still pouring down the sky,and from the news,maybe for another 5days~

russia is weird,just like their people..

nevertheless,i think am goin to miss the chill while walking fast through the snow,

you can say that i'm a weirdo too,but honestly.for me,it is definitely the BEST time for my mind to rest from anything since the only goal at that moment is to reach the metro station asap,hahahahahaha~

will update the blog with some pics later,iA~thinking about grabbing a digital camera soon!:)

even though,it feels quite lonely for this second semester,i still have great friends at class who never fail to make me laugh!love you guys sooooooooooooo much!!*eeeuuuuuw~(^____________^)

~and plus,not to forget, great companion who always there,24/7~yeke?:p~love u tooo!

selamat malam dear~

harapan~

sayu tatkala mendengar link ini~

lagi sayu bila dengar kata-kata Hamka: sungguh yang ada ini sudah harapan kita~

malah,apa yang sudah kita ada jauh  sudah lebih dari harapan kita,

hidup ini,kita sering pandang pada salah,mengomel tentang sukar,tumpu pada kurang,silap tiap sesuatu~

hidup ini,kita dambakan pada yang lebih dari ada,

hidup ini,kita lupa,

lupa yang ada itu sudah lebih dari cukup,

lupa betapa bahagianya kita kerna meski betapa derita kita satu masa lampau,namun pada saat ini, Dia telah keluarkan kita dari segala ranjau,segala perit,dan kini,tanpa kita sedar,kita masih mampu tersenyum, mampu ketawa?

aku salahkan diri aku,aku salahkan diri aku kerna syukur aku jauh lagi kecil ukurannya dari batu pasir yang berteraburan tepi pantai,

aku malu,malu kerna syukur aku datang bagai jarangnya tsunami melanda,namun pergi cepatnya bagai ombak menghempas pantai~

hari ini,hati aku tersentuh,mungkin besok lusa,hilang kembali,

sungguh aku hamba yang lemah,

Tuhan,kuatkanlah hati hamba-hambaMu ini~

sunnguh sebaik-baik pelindung itu Engkau,ya Allah,kepadaMu kami berserah,kepadaMu kami pohon pertolongan~ameen~

slap your own face please!

pengajaran hari ni yang patut dah berzaman sedar diri wahai nabilah zawahid yang dh masuk kategori ngok:

sila hidup sendiri,jangan bergantung harap pada orang laen no matter btape byk kau percaye orang tu,sbb in the end,the bitter fact is:

NOBODY REALLY CARES~

my doa~

monday,28/2/2011~

i ended up lying on the bed for almost 12hours straight,with a very bad headache and plus,chest pain which i have to endure up until now,hu~seriously,feeling suffocate is extremely terrible~(T__T)

with a big news coming from my lil sis just now,saying that my mum got ketumbuhan inside her neck made things even worse for me~all i can do is praying hard so that it isn't something serious and no such thing like ketumbuhan,isk~being thousands miles away from her with this kinda news is terrifying..am extremely scared~(T___T)~

frankly speaking,i've tried hard to focus on the letters which are beautifully organized all over the propedeuitic's giant text book but ended up with a big ZERO inside my very small brain,and yes,at this rate,not being able to concentrate is a huge mesS for a 3rd year medic-student like me(T___T)~

too many things going through my mind right now,and i can't even find a way to express how i feel..

but anyhow, here it goes,the only wish,the only doa that i have in my heart right now:

to You,the only One who i put all my hopes and faith in,may You bless my mom's life with the best of health~

cause she's the one i love the most in this whole life,and may all the pain that she's having right now fade away~doaku,moge Tuhan pelihara kedua orang tuaku~ameen~

Hundreds of dewdrops to greet the dawn,

Hundreds of bees in the purple clover,

Hundreds of butterflies on the lawn,

But only one mother the wide world over.

~George Cooper

kura2 jalan lambat~=_="

let's make this quick:

busy,mgantok,otak kne penyakit lembab~

*alhamdulillah,mak gettin better,seriously worried~huhuhu~

terkejar2 with everything and malam susah nak masuk bile stadi,huk~need to refresh my biological clock ASAP or else ketinggalan jauh k belakang,huk~do ur best,and remember that the best thing is He's always there for you~

:)

wassalam~

:)

memalukan.

.it's the last word i wish to hear out of your mouth,but unfortunately,i had it just now~

sedar kekurangan diri~tenkyu ingatkan sll~

alert!

A BIG REMINDER FOR ME!

typical me who never fail to complaints about soo many things while i'm too lucky to have all the blessings around me at this rate~just wanna share sumthing that happened to me today~i was touched,again~huhu~

on my way back,i saw a young man,who kneel down the stairs to get himself into the metro station~he asked for no help,and he still managed to curve a smile at me who was subconsciously stopped,and amazed with his willpower..and few hours before that,i met 2 young men,working at mcd and both of them are deaf and bisu,hu~malu ngan diri sendiri,sangat tak bersyukur ngn kaki yang ade,mulut yang xreti nk stop bercakap~

orang cakap~the secret of happiness is to count your blessings while others are busy adding up their problems~
the decision is in your hands,of course~

current updates about me,myself and I,hehe,poyo~:

1. perfectly healthy,alhamdulillah

2.trying to cope with too many difficult subjects especially topan,pray for me ye!;)

3.adjusting well with being a lone-ranger,well,i'm really grateful for having great foreigners as my housemates!they've been treating me so well like their own sister~syukur!:))and of course,missing my ex,rumie,radhi!rindu nak solat jemaah with you~;(

4.for having someone,who always there for me,wlaupun it will take his tym lepak2,rehat at home for the sake to teman me,tenkyuuu sgt,i should ask for no more~:)*but still,nak mafla belang2 wrane warni boley x?hahaha!:p

5.on DIET!yes i am!huhuhuhu~seriously,sgt menyeksekan untuk org yang cintakan nasik dan makan minimum 2 pinggan nasik per day~huhuhuk~sekarang,dah mkn sekali dlm 3 hari,dan minggu ke-2,still baek2 aje,walaupon tiap kali makan nsik rse nk menangis,rinduuu~

akhir kate,bak kate radhi syg:

lakarkan senyuman agar hati anda pun tersenyum~:)

love,

me.

pic worth a thousand words~

out of these 3 lovely pics,i prefer the last one the most.obviously,wrinkles no longer a big deal,being fat is nothing.only two hearts that love each other for who they are,that really matters~

i've seen a lot of them here,in moscow,and i believe in the existence of that kind of bond with all my heart~

:)

have a good night everyone,salam~

beauty is everything~

i cried today.alone on the train and i did not realized the warmth of the tears running down my face until an old lady,patted on my back,gave me a tissue,with some gestures of "do wipe the tears away young lady" and simply smiled just right after that.it was really warm..huhu..and plus,surprised by a big red-spot of blood on my sock when i was washing them because i didn't even feel any pain on the back of foot all the way back home~i'm lost at the moment,really~

not to forget,regardless the fact that i am ugly on the outside,being told that i am ugly on the inside by a man made me such a jerk,hu~i failed badly as a woman,mintak maaf mak,ayah~for not being a good anak perempuan of yours,seriously,kecewe ngn dri sendiri,malu~

sincerely from the very bottom of my heart,really am sorry for being such an eyesore to anyone around  me,i will do my best to behave properly,maaf~

i know it's not right to have all these wishes,but somehow,i wish i can have all of them~hu~

you dont know anything~

packed schedule makes me forget the fact that i'm becoming a successful lone-ranger..but fyi,it doesn't mean i'm a heartless person,who is willing to accept all the yells thrown on my face.noticing the fact that i'm such a jerk,will try to be better~ and plus,i should stay quiet,and this time will be for real,trying really hard here,forcing back all the tears and fear each time i step my feet on the metro's floor,alone,God help me please,i need the strength,ameen~:"(

..quickie..

just the way i am,right now

someone else's heart ~

extreme weather gives me throbbing headache and not to forget,topan....=_="

felt so down and stupid for not understanding any word coming out of the teacher's mouth~

hu~

clueless for the time being,hopefully i can catch up with everything as soon as possible.hu.

life is completely not easy for this time.

happy especially with you around but serabut amt,doakn everything will be okay pliz ye?

love,

me

quick post from moscow~

the blog is under renovation for the time being~

:)

ku senyum ke telinga~:)

(^^,)

i'm smiling today because of these:

1. saw a pic of kak emy and daus happily married,super cute! :)

2. seeing photos of kak sikin n rafeeq's new princess,super duper sweet~!! :))

3. having super great family around,feeling so blessed~alhamdulillah~:"))

4.going back to moscow and meet someone~bogoshipo lah!:D

the summary is, had a great,happy day,am so grateful!~

:)

bye kajang,hi moscow~:)

dah lame meninggalkan blog kusam ni,hahahaha,saje mempercantikkan rope sedikit and nak tgok something new smbil mhabeskan waktu terluang tatkale dok lepak2 abes nanges dok tgok cite korea my pitiful sister*cite fevret mak,sob2,sdey gilo,sob2~:"(~ok,intro panjang,satu nafas,semput~haha!

sedar xsedar,den dh nak balik moscow besok,huhuhuk,td dok goreng2 ikan bilispedas*act mak y gorengkan,tbe2 rase sayu pule mengenangkan kehidupan yang bakal diharungi d bumi moscow yang kdg2 indah itu~huhuhuk,rasenye sem ni goin to be tough in many ways,huk~tapi ppepon,tgh dok cube positif habes2an ni ha,walaupun mcm kelam j 2nd sem ni,hohoho~

mak pesan,sume2 yang jadi ade hikmah,mak tau nabilah goin to be better with all those changes,i believe in you!~ceh,ayat last tambah2 snanye,walopon mak xsebut,nmpak la lam mate,cewoh,dramatik punye feelin,haha!6 days of classes and saturday till 4pm sounds a disaster,for me la,hoho,but nvm,dh bese 6 sem ade kelas sabtu,nak buat lagu mane,pasrah jola~

den harap,den doa,moge den kuat2 kat sane,lembek dr dulu dah tibe mase den jadik SUPERWOMAN neh~hehehehe,nak increase confident level,nak stady bet0l2,nak kurangkan tdoq macam baby gemok,besar 58kilo,hahahahahahahahahha!~ok,and nak kurangkan makan nasik tercinta yang ku xdapat bayangkan gimana hidupku tanpa kamu,namun,penghalang antara cinta kite,iaitu si lemak berlayer memakse hubungan kite untuk terhenti seketika,eh eh,xterhenti,mati den nanti,cume nasik,kite kene kurang rapat sikit eh,jangan risau,you are my sweetheart forever and ever gitu!heee,sayang nasik!:*

akhir kate dari bumi kajang,malaysia tercinte,berat hatiku untuk pergi,namun moscow dh dok panggil2 bersame okhlobistin tersayang,jadi,adios,moge kite ketemu lagi di bumi hangat 365hari ini~syg semua,mak ayah,adik2,abg~tok,tokki dan sekelian2~doakan daku disane~:)
wassalam~:)

new sem,new me?

'Year of blood and tears' promised by most wanted Chechen terrorist.

nice welcoming news i guess since i am going back there this saturday~for the fact that the new semester is going to be quite different in many ways; being an absolute lone ranger with the new,hectic schedules and bla bla,i am praying hard for strength to overcome all of these~need to master the skills of handling things alone no matter what,because at this rate,all i have is my own self,and dear myself yang sangat fragile inside and out,,yosh! u can do this for sure!~

aiming for a better sem,and of course,this boring site will be my bestie for the upcoming months.i will talk less,wont mess up with others;and be a katak dbwh tempurung.that's for everyone's good,yosh! not hoping for a happy life there of course,i'll try my best to study hard,and try my very best to be a good doc.so,with more tym in my room alone+piles of books as my companion=i'll be an ulat for sure~:I

and am starting to have proper plans for future,one of them is SIMPAN DUIT!~hehehe~will go to asb asap and have an account,hee!:D~ hidup berjimat cermat,and sile kurangkan shopping and makan because you are keeping to0 much fats under your layers of skin and of course, you need to go on diet ASAP si bulat,gemok!huhuhuhuk!

terlalu bulat,kan?:p

anway,i had really great weeks here since i cant barely find the memory of the last moment,me,having this big smile on my face~huhuk~may everything will turn out well,and praying hard for our safety back there~He knows it all,for certain.have faith,fix your intention,niat kerana Illahi~insyaAllah,He's always with us~ameen~:) 

perfectly fine!

few words to describe the whole week are:

gemok,makan banyak,gembira!

:)

p/s:everyone is telling me about fat i am from before~haih~picture is an absolute proof,i'll show you more of them when i get back to kajang later,broadband is killing me btw,haih~if the weather is perfect petang nanti,we'll be heading to the beach,pantai batu buruk,it has been ages since my last time went there~hope everything will turn out great and everyone's mood is fine!~:D

nilai anda adalah seperti SAMPAH!

frankly speaking,the feeling is fading away

useless me,better be me and myself,all alone,back to way things were used to be,a very looong time ago.


*dengki org len dpt jd spesel,slh sendiri,damn useless.worthless mcm sampah!~
bodoh aku~

*sory,emo lg,abaikn this stupid blog.

you and me~

i have been sleeping with these songs for one month already:

1.firework,boyce avenue

2.teenage dream,boyce avenue

3.pieces dont fit anymore,james morrison

4.goodbye my lover,james blunt

5.you're beautiful,james blunt

6.gravity,sara bareilles

7.carry you home,james blunt

8.you make it real,james morrison

mostly from the same singers,same genre,lovin them by heart!
love.love.love
:)

emo.again?who cares?

nothing will change,a simple,stupid sorry is completely nothing at ALL.seriously,taking everything into the account,i'll say things won't go even further,trust is just a word,believe is just a form of 7letters which you might get when u mix them up together.the broken pieces are way tooo small,that u can't even break any of them into any tiny little piece anymore.swearing that you won't take things for granted was a complete huge lie.if you can't appreciate small little things,please go ahead and live your own life,those stupid thingy meant a lot to me,and will always be.

*sakit hati.kecik hati.i hate the stupid date to death,if there's a liquid paper which may erase everything out of my memory regarding that particular date,i'll buy it asap!~hu~sorry,emo,just need to share,u can click the X button at the top,right corner of the screen,thanx~

!

stupid me.bodoh.sumpah,last,and never ever!

lupakan~

tarikh dan angka...

sekecil mana pun mereka buat engkau,meski remeh kau pandang nombor-nombor itu,

tetap sangat berharga buat aku.

tarikh rasmi ?aku tak perlukan lagi,hilang nafsu disitu,lupakan saja,campak ke laut saja kata-kata dulu.

jaga diri,moga bahagia..

salam

dear beyh~:)

dear mohd nadzuan yahaya, u're turning 22 today!heehee!

and here i send to you warm wishes,that your happiness will be as wonderful as the happiness you have always given me,may the sun shine warm upon your face,may your smiles never fade away...moga Allah sentiasa memberkati tiap saat dalam hidup beyh,org doakan beyh sll bjaye dalam semua yang beyh impikan~

and last but not least,thanks so much for everything and not to forget,28th january,we're goin to be officially a year kn,hehe,hope everything will turn out great for upcoming years and years...

:)

wish you a warm happy birthday with lots of love,

org~:)

:)))

salam..

here are few recent news in my life:

1.bombing,again~and now,at the airport?=_="

2. made my first lemon chiffon cake~:)

3.spent the whole evening today,shopping with my mum,awesome!and had nice meehun soto!:D

seriously,am looking forward to have sisters' day out this wiken,sakinah is coming back on friday,and mr.midvelli,wait for us!:)~and do hope that i'll get a chance to meet wani,dilah and the rest semestarian's gang before going back to moscow,huhu~with weight reaching 58 kilos,all i can conclude is i'm a happy-bulat makcik who just can't help herself eating most of the time,lol. 

anyhow,someday,someone might come into your life and love you the way you've always wanted,if your someday was yesterday,learn.if your someday is tomorrow,hope,but if your someday is today,cherish!:D

and doing my best to cherish my "someday" because i've found the right "someone"already!:)

p/s:here are the lemon cake,not dat nice~haha!

kewl sunday!:)

had a great sunday with great companions and superbly,great food!

:D

home-made tomyam,kailan ikan masin,lala msk cili for dinner and big apple's donuts as my supper!

gonna reach 60 kilos by the end of the holiday,hahaha!

*matikudasai

*really want to upload some new pics~soooon kay dear blog!;)

*attracted to the pic few minutes ago,and told myself TO do my best for my future plans to go on DIET~!

haahahahahaha!

:D

ps: missing you~:*

plans to go!~insy!:)

few plans to go:~:))))

1.tomorrow: lekas highway,here i come!*praktis memandu ngn ayah*takot*=_="

2.ahad: broga hill with zawani rusli!!!a date which i've been waiting for sooo long~;)*eksited

3.nxt jumaat: tggu sakinah pulang and lepak kt midvelli mbazir duit bersama afiqah too~:D

4.selase: balik kampung,yuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!:)))~for 4 days and lots of great food will be waiting there!

5.another week to rest here

6.sabtu,12thfeb: moscow,here i come,again!wuhuhuhu!:)

:(

long distance doesn't suit me in any ways~

trust me,i knw well about this.

and plus,hate the fact that i couldn't be able to sleep nicely for the entire week here~

seriously out of mood.full stop.

weeeheeee!:D

what is happiness to you?

to be able to smile full heartedly,urm,by having someone who will always there,holding my hands tight whenever i tremble in fear,someone who will wipe all the tears and make me laugh if a bad person hurts my feeling~having someone who will smile while looking at me eating plates and plates of food.hehe~and i believe that at this moment i have many of those great people in my life,and am grateful for that,really and with that i shall conclude that i'm a FAT,HAPPY 22 years old big girl!heee~(^^,)v

why do you love to blog?

well,to be honest,it feels weird somehow for the fact that i'm a blogger right now,and recently,i publish posts very frequently as i believe almost everyday!hahahaha!the true fact is i do hate writing,yup!i failed too many times in my whole life in crearing a strong bond with words,haha~but somehow,playing with all these letters make me feel better and i do hope no one will read my blog somehow..=_="

one thing that never fails to bring back your smile whenever you feel grumpy?

CHOCOLATE,just name it~~dark choc,milky one,hersheys,cadbury,kisses or even alpen gold,i will never say NO for them,yeeeeehaaaa!:D~but as far as my taste buds concern,which they have been working nicely for almost 22 years old,milky choc with toffee and almond/hazelnut will be the top of the long list of mine!hahaha!they are simply the best!just had 4 of them today and they were just sooo PERFECT to keep me smiling the whole day~weeeheee! (^__________^)

one big thing that you fear the most in your life?

a broken family.divorce thingy and anything associated with that,and plus i hate the most men who can't control their anger and love to yell around~i just,hate them,sorry,no offence k~:(

your current state?

happy  with my beloved family around,grateful to be able to say that i am happy,eat seriously a LOT,and not to forget,missing someone in moscow sooo very much,that's all~:)

till then,have a happy life everyone!~:)

:))

trying to look NERD even i'm tooooo far away to reach even the N letter out of those 4-most-common-letters in a medic student's life~hahaha!

tadaaa~my NEW,nerdy spec will completely suit the NEW,MOST DIFFICULT upcoming semester!~
hope it will keep me for more hours in front of books instead of watching gossip girl,grey's anatomy,glee etc,etc...

:D

hihihihihi~nanti siap akan upload the NEW me!

and,amazing food i had today,and they both were my top listed glorious food in this world!

asam pedas pari and home-made char kuey tiaaw!terbaek dari ladanglah mak!

:)))))

p/s: beyh,xmau pijak my spec kt domodedovo airport nanti kay!because it is BIG and i know u'll hate it!~hahaha! and will update the blog everyday,until u'll bored to death,reading my posts,hihi~xoxo dear!

:))

completely shocked 2days ago with the presence of braces on my lil sis's teeth,haha,ok she looks different now and plus she speaks weirdly,hahaha,no offence kay,but am soo happy for you,because one of ur big dreams is going to become true,having a nicely arranged set of teeth for another 2 years,maybe?jealous a lil bit~haha!~

yesterday,i spent the day doing urm,nothing actually except for almost 16 hours of sleeping due to frequent attacks of headache.to be honest,i'm kinda lost my appetite,and this freaks me out a bit.huk.but no matter what,asam pedas melaka,the menu for today managed to bring back the real "monster" inside of me!!:D lunch was awesome!one of the main mission was accomplished!yeeeehaaaaa!~:)

last but not least,at 5a.m,everything went black while heading towards the toilet,and i ended up lying down on the floor.it was my first tym pitam,really,hu~menakotkan~huhu~

being here with no well-arranged plans at all to fill up the time,do hope the hols will turn out great!~:p

p/s: and to u,really do miss u~:"(

finally!;D

being home!after almost 13 hours of doing nothing on the flight,plus 6 hours of transit,finally,Malaysia,here I am!~weeeheeee~:D~ ponat actually but it should be nothing to compare with the pleasure of being here right? frankly speaking, it feels quite weird this time,maybe due to the very short gap of 4 months time  from the last summer hols,and without u around,but at the end of the day,you sounded like soooo fine with my absence,so i should concentrate about how to spend my hols alone with people here happily!yosh!should dissapear for a month i guess,yosh2x!:)

(^^,)v~care less,happy more,yosh!

p/s: plus got a sweet necklace from my mom,weee,so sweet of u mak,thanxie!xoxo

keju~:)

 tadaaa~my 1st home-made cheese cake for you mr.nadzuan yahaya!

:)

nampak cam ok ja,rase?i dunno because i DON'T eat cheese cake!haha!

and at this moment,my boo-cake is hibernating inside the fridge,waiting for tomorrow,do hope it will taste good,don't bother too much about the appearance,really..kui3

so,after almost 2 hours,trying my best for this,do hope you'll enjoy it tomorrow,really am sorry because i cannot be with you on 27th january,this blueberry cheese cake will be my first present for you in advance and the rest,wait for me on 12th february okay!:)

heee~and tomorrow will be the day,am praying hard so that you and all of our batchmates will do well tomorrow!

all the best everyone,pray hard okay?

love you all!

:D

d spartiv!~2 days to go!~

si keding and si bulat

SHOMEYL

*being forced to write this down

(^^,)

spartivnaya h0stel ,12.45am,spending the whole night here while counting the days back home is GREAT!~:)

at least,i enjoy spending the time with these whole bunch of people compare to being alone at home,d0ing nothing,haha!

1.54 a.m~still sitting beside that keding guy,for the sake of being his company since microbe will be in 2 days time.huhu,well beyh,honestly,you're not pushing me to write down this ok,because dear,i really am goin to miss you soooo damn much!hu~do your best,study hard,because ur effort is all that He counts ok?i know everything will be okay nanti dear!(^^,)~

orang nak mantok ni,nak pi tito~hee~nyte!

one more thing.

but should be no more

:)

4 days to go!

in our life,we can't get everything that we want,it's a fact,breathe with it or else,you will cry because of it.
though u did put all of your effort for someone,it doesn't mean that you can win his/her heart.
well,maybe just because the person is not what you expecting,doesn't mean that he/she is not the one you've been waiting for kan? perhaps someone who believe the same thing is waiting for you,somewhere,it's just the time that keeps both of you apart.

 i suddenly remember this,which was from my mum..
"go and find someone who wants you with all of his heart,not someone who you adore,or else you'll find out he-who-must-not-be-named will give thousands of reasons to leave you at the end of the day"~

to be honest,i don't need a new jacket for each winter sale,nor sushi for dinner once a week,or any material available in this whole word.the only thing that matters is fonding me with all of his heart like what najwa has stated on fb tadi"one day,you'll know i'm one in a million".
well,i prefer the only one out of everything,hohoho,demand,yup,I am~haha!:p

with this,i conclude that if i'm not your "the one out of all of the women in this land",well,maybe i should sit in a corner and keep on believing that my knight that i've been waiting for will appear in one bright shiny day nanti..

keep on smiling no matter how hurt it is,because one fine day,the pain will heal,even the scar will permanently there,who cares as it hurts no more..

counting days,
me.

5 days to go!

i'm not a good writer,and fail to express most of my feelings with words,well,words and me,we never made for each other.but still,i love blogging,haha!

ok,being the only malaysian in this room,with the absence of radhi is...urm,how should i put it,..lonely,i guess,huhuk..due to my own fault,who is basically reluctant to study ruski yezik,made me kind of a stranger here..hu~out 0f 10 words uttered by them,maybe 20% of them which i can truly digest by heart. the rest goes by putting them into the best interpretation that suits in the condition at that moment.

hahaha,silly me kan! =_="

should learn more or else,i'll die nodding clueless in 3 years time.dang!=_=""

hurm,spent a whole day,doing basically n0thing!huk,should take a nice walk out of the room tomorrow,sh0uldn't I? even if it means alone,i should go somewhere,take a fresh air,snap some pictures.

basically the idea of going home is great for s0 many reasons,but leaving u here for a m0nth doesn't feel so great,hu~and plus,i couldn't spend the days with you,f0r the exam's sake and yup,it is torturing,but it's ok, promise me you'll do ur best kay dear!always pray for the best for you!:)

ok,enough for today,should browse for my 3rd movie of the day!huk~well,watched ice age3 and you again before,they were nice,really~:)

bye,xoxo!

:)

skin graft surgery~:"(

dry+cold=skin pain=in need of skin graft

(T___T)

p/s: love spending the quiet night,listening to their covers,

it just...great~:)

:)

12 января до 12 февраля 2011

a month to rest my head away from this land which i refuse to love for any reason.

a month to smile,put all the tears away and laugh as loud and as much as possible.

a month to breathe freely,think about no problem and eat as much as i can.

a month to find back the meaning of life which i tend to forget here.

30 days to pick up all the strength from the beloved ones in order to pursue another few months here.

2010 ended with tears and anger overdose.time being wasted with nothing special to be remembered,
 too many memories to be regretted indeed.

may the new semester begins with a better spirit and an extremely high level of resistance. 

i wish.

well,i am in a mission of making my life more worthy to live,and pull myself back together to the one who i used to be,

with His will,of course,ameen...:)

waiting for 12th jan~:(

despite of feeling terribly bad and useless today,and having flu,talking to my mum and lil sis gave me few ideas about how am i goin to sped the great hols in malaysia!

first: my must-have foodlists! 

asampedas ikan pari!nasi dagang!gulai lomak cili api(ayam,udang,ketam,pucuk paku,or anytin),kerabu mangga dimakan bersama tomyam2 mantap,ikan bakar bersama sambal merah y terbaek,kangkong belacan,kailan dan rakan2 sayor bewarne hijau dll!hahahaha!

second: try to hold the steering wheel with my new,untouched P license which i got 1 day before i flew back to moscow..hahahha!:p

n learn how to drive to alamanda!

then,it will be easier for me to shop and catch some movies later!weeeheeee!

and last but not least,study id!haha!how i wish it will be for real!nvm,it's a plan rite?

no one knows what will happen next,hahahahaha!:p

tired of being a sampah to YOU,i shall pack my luggage and pray that 12th january will come by as fast as possible!

till then,have a nice day!

:)

i am happy,feeling good!~:D

topshop wool swing coat,awww~;))

i love the blue one so bad!!!huhuhuhu!

tp moscow ade ijau aje,sooon baby,u'll be mine!

♥

btw,td ade open house,makan nasik kerabu,best gilak,hahahahha!ngn spagetti gaul cheese ngn bebola bola daging ngn derek shepards pie,sirap biji selasih aka teloq kataq~hohohoho,sedap!!!

:D

had a great day today!

alhamdulilllah~

2011

 for me,despite of 2010 was the year with the most tears ever in my whole life...

still i found smiles through out the whole things..untuk semua yang menggembirakan sye sepanjang 2010, terima kasih dan maaf untuk segalanya~

lots of love,bello~

:")

mereka yang aku xpernah putus doa,moga senyum dan bahagia sll dalam hidup mereka~:)

housemates terbaek!!!:)

 

rakan2 batch yang selalu hepy and menggembirakan~:D

and to u radhi,who will leave me in kahov starting tomorrow,1/01/2011,

mohon maaf atas semuanya,siyesly,mintak maaf sgt weh~

huhu,harap ko xsimpan dalam hati,halalkan makan minum aku selama kite stay same2~

jage dri kat sne and moge ko lbey hepy kat spartiv,iA~

syg ko cmne2 pon~:")

and for you,nadzuan yahaya,meskipun xlame tempoh msenye,i hurt you in so many ways yang xd duit kt dunia ni mampu bayar untuk semua lebam ditangan,sakit di hati,

maaf for everything,maaf sangat dan terima kasih sbb bersabar with me~:)

sll doa y terbaek for both of us~

may 2011 brings a better year for you!

love,

:)