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Wednesday, 6 July 2011

day 13





Day 13 – What kind of person attracts you?




sweet,sweet,sweeeeeet~tak menipu~sanggup dgr me my endless stories with smile on his face~sanggup layan my childish behaviour~xmarah~xske jerit~buat me gelak byk2~xbuat me nanges,tp kl ye pon,snggup pujuk balik~xskodeng pompuan laen even though i'm so ugly and fat~baek ngn his family,syg dorg sincerely~xtinggal solat~baek~baek~baek~xboring~tinggi and besar from me,tu wajib!!n etc etc etc~heeee~

well the list will never end kan?for everyone pon,i just dont mind how he looks like,just let him be the one who will guide me to Jannah,iA~a huge dream right??


Tuesday, 5 July 2011

day 12

Day 12 –  A photo of something that makes you happy





meet my 3 cute babies~^^


Sunday, 3 July 2011

...

lemas.sakit.i just wanna gooo home~:"(

...

u're going to be single for the rest of your life,so stop wasting your tears!

stupid me.


day 10&11



Day 10 – A photo of the item you last purchased.



macaroons,finally,the taste really doesnt fit the price~


Day 11 –  5 facts about you.

1. officially a 4th year student!yeeehaaaaawwww!goodbye painful 3rd year!~:D
2.eat a lot and never stop,because i simply can't and as the result,i'm a big fat cow right now~
3.talk a lot and very difficult to find the fullstop.:p
4.takot hantu mcm ape,xley tido kl xd peneman,xley tdo kl tgkp terbuka,xly tdo kalo lampu pasang,xly tdo kl ad bunyi pelik2,and xpernah tengok ju-on,hahaha!
5.sll beli barang yang pastu mmg tbe2 xberkenan n xpakai langsung~mbazir~:p



Friday, 1 July 2011

...



when there's nothing left,the only thing that stays is pain.

glad it's over

Thursday, 30 June 2011

;(

boleh x diam untuk 2 hari,aku nak belajar!urghhhhh!

day 9

Day 9 –  Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

of course single~n now available!~yeeehaaa!well,what can i say,i should be more careful in treating my dear heart well since i might end up giving it to someone who his heart is other's again.well,hard for such a weak,dependent person like me to face this difficult life alone,but if others can do it,why can't i right?and Allah is there,always~i've spent too much time,hoping for things which will never going to be mine,and dear nabilah,just stand up strong and you know what,one fine day,there will be someone who will take all your weaknesses and willing to be with you,just you,not thinking bout another girl when he's with you.enough of being so stupid and stop wasting your tears to anyone who don't even like you.life is beautiful,enjoy each second of it,stop crying and hope for something better.

2 days to go,my last paper and 10th july,i'll be flying home,just cant wait!


Wednesday, 29 June 2011

day 8

never try to compete "perfectness" when you're just a loser in everything,
cause you will fail,FOREVER.



p/s: day 7: A picture of your favourite memory

~ trying hard here to forget the best memory in my stupid brain so sorry,no picture to answer that question.





pengajaran: stop liking that someone,dont be stupid,:)

Tuesday, 28 June 2011

day 6&7~haha,mengelat,sory,got exam today!:p

day 6~A song to match your mood

i love this song toooooo much!hahaha!great song,super great singer,i love her,i think she's so pretty!~:D



day 7~A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet



the truth is i never fond of having animals as pets.they are cute,really in photos or in zoos,hee~
i'm a cruel person,hahaha.




Monday, 27 June 2011

day 5

what makes you different from others:


i'm a girl with the smallest amount of girlfriends in the world.


for me,having girlfriends who you can spend all your laughter, sadness,and being stupid with is very crucial to complete a girl's life.girlfriends are the one who will understand you the most,yes they are,huhu~

and for that,i blame myself,forever.it's the biggest mistake ever,and now i'm more than the most pathetic lone ranger in the world.



Saturday, 25 June 2011

day 4


nu'ur fatimah baharruddin,
seeing you smile is more than enough to make me smile too,
even if i was crying at that moment,
you know well which particular "moment" right?
heee,
and for that and all wonderful things about you dear,
thank you soo very muchosss for being there for me,always 
and i do hope you'll stay,
forever,

 i love you till akhirat syg!


p/s: the question is ur fav photo of ur bestie!hehe!:p





Friday, 24 June 2011

day 3

salam,

urm,to be honest it is indeed a really hard one,since being different from most of girls in this planet,i never have a thought about how my first date should looks like,since i never think about having someone liking me,or going to marry me,yeah,this has been in my mind since i was a kid,and in fact i'm still thinking exactly the same way.and i even have a plan of adopting a child if i'm way too old and there's still no ring on my jari manis at that particular time,haha!~

but here it goes,still have to answer the question right and i just came up with this,at this time of my senile age,and my unstable mind and emotions,hehehe..

i wish i would have a first date,in a place where no one knows me,and it's way better if there's no one else,just us and i wanna have my very first moment with that ONE ring which i'm going to wear for the entire of my life~and it should be here:

we're married kot,so boleh laa kan?hehe.

p/s; it's not going to be my first of course,it's a dream,yeah,i'm not a good girl,not proud of any of that~huhuk~but am trying so hard to be one of the good women,and have a decent life with the best guy who will lead me to Jannah iA~it's everybody's dream right,and mine too despite of my worst attitudes and etc etc~heee~:p

till then,salam~:)



aku perlu pisau,kapak,segala bagai benda yang tajam


hulur aku apa2 saat ini,
aku mungkin akan bunuh semua,
skali lagi aku ulang,
semua.

Thursday, 23 June 2011

day 2

salam,


a very easy question indeed,so here it goes,
my fav movie is mr.HARRY POTTER,and i'm a freaking huge fan who watched each of them 10times at least! hahaha,i'm a freak,u can call me that~:p


* today,after 2 days pampering myself with tonnes of movies,i finally went out and took a walk.well,pharma was a torturing paper,and to touch a book right now,is none of my interest.haha!so lazy me right?and peeps, today's lunch was korean food yawww!haha! had fun eating nasik sotong,sedaplah jugak~and got myself a yves rocher's shower foam for myself,haha!there's nothing really special about this shower gel,so lame blogging about it indeed,it's just that i wanted it so bad just to boast around to my roomates who most of them using this brand at home!hahaha!well,i never afford to buy expensive stuff like this,i'm way too pokai right now,and this one is a present of course,thanxie!!! finally,my mission to walk proudly while carrying this bottle after having bath is achieved!~haha!~perangai terok,hohohoho!~

super wangi btw,love it!





Wednesday, 22 June 2011

day 1

day 1~:)

a very difficult question though,took me some time to sort the best of of too many of them,
but here it goes,

my forever favourite song will be: you make it real by james morrison

*well,i love all of his songs,great singer,great voice instead.
*just went back from a lunch with vika's family,she's a russian,and just finished her 6th year here,and her whole family are here~hehehe,sometimes,it feels great knowing people out of your radar,even i just stood there,trying my very best to understand each word,well,of course i failed many times,still it felt good~:)
can't wait to be home,like seriously!~


:)

30 Things in 30 Days Challenge



Day 1 — Your favorite song
Day 2 — Your favorite movie
Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.
Day 5 – What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 6 –  A song to match your mood.
Day 7 –  A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 8 –  A picture of your favourite memory
Day 9 –  Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 10 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
Day 11 –  5 facts about you.
Day 12 –  A photo of something that makes you happy.
Day 13 – What kind of person attracts you?
Day 14 – Who are you?
Day 15 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 16 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 17 – How you hope your future will be like.
Day 18 – 5 things that irritate ME about opposite/same sex
Day 19 – A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 23 –  Your dream wedding.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – Short term goals for this month and why
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you want to go.
Day 27 – A picture of your favourite band or artist
Day 28 – In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

let's try this~tgh boring and having no idea what to write~:p~

p/s: just for fun,it's ok if no one going to read,i'm a lame blogger~haha!



Tuesday, 21 June 2011

pompuan

salam,

when a girl says "its okay","i,m fine","don't worry about it",it's simply not okay,she's nowhere near fine and you should definitely worry about it.

and plus,we hate too much questions,why don't sometime try to think with your own brain coz it really does't even cost you a dollar~




it's my fav drink right now,super sedap lah!~:D



ok,haha,tepat!~

Pic

Sunday, 19 June 2011

cantik!


keri russell,
my forever sweetheart~
haha!

p/s:: watching august rush is a must to anyone who haven't seen it!great movie like seriously~:)






Thursday, 16 June 2011

forever crush~





Declan: I don't want not to make plans with you. I want to make plans with you. 
Anna: You do? 
Declan
: Yeah I do. 


ok,my 2nd time watching this film which is leap year brought me to the same feeling of melting like an ice cream in a hot sunny day and the only word that came out of my mouth was oh you handsome man,oh...so handsome...and that one word was uttered spontaneously again and again~why??? coz he's too gorgeous,too kacak to be true,the jambang is so hot~blue hot eyes,oh my,i keep on falling in love with this matthew goode~
(yes,yes,mood super gatal,i cant resist him,that's it.period.) 


for you,you know who you are~


and F.Y.I,even though u were the one who did that "super cool" thing,you don't really have to jump over the moon and keep on bragging about how i was soo pathetic back then. maybe i used to react like i was soo desperate ever before,but just read this carefully----->

it was a huge mistake,a freaking worst regret ever!

get it?

fullstop.the end




Tuesday, 14 June 2011

salam,

well,i just passed my another paper,and guess what,only 3 to go and i will be freeeeee!~for whatever had happened today,all that i can say is alhamdulillah~and well,just right after the exam,we went out searching for food,and instead of x kenyang,haha,we ended up in a new shopping mall,and the huge matrioshkas~heeee~











my new shoes btw!~:)


Sunday, 12 June 2011

kilos and more kiloss~




                       these are part of sooo many reasons why i keep on gaining weght~huhuhu! =_="



Saturday, 11 June 2011

1 month to go!:)))


assalamualaikum semue!*eceh,mcm ad je "semue" tu~haha!


"When a husband and wife look at each other with Love, Allah 
looks at both with Mercy" [Bukhari 6:19 & Tirmidhi 14:79]

fell in love with this~well,it's almost july and it's wedding season you all~
heeeeeee~:)
i guess almost 5 of my dear friends are going to tie the knot soon,congrats guys,
may Allah bless you and your life partner till Jannah~
insyaAllah!
:)

radhi's new baby,heee~si comeyll~rase cm nak makan~haha!:D


Thursday, 9 June 2011

khamis!~:)


salam~

today,my roomates treated me a huge pizza!hahaha!even they don't even like seafood,yet they still bought it for the sake nk belanje me~so sweeeet of them!!



well,there's nothing much to say,i've been spending the whole day listening to mr micheal buble while studying*well,i guess most of the time my eyes fixed on his cute face instead of looking to the words on my patanat book~hahaha!~i should lie down for a while,my back is aching soo badly!~hu~


orang kate kalau kite share pape ayat yang baik untuk ingatan n pengajaran,tu sekecil2 usehe kite untuk tunaikn tanggungjawab kite kan~:)~so here it goes:

"Dan kepunyaan Allah-lah timur dan barat, maka kemanapun kamu menghadap di situlah wajah Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Luas (rahmat-Nya) lagi Maha Mengetahui." - [Al-Baqarah : 115]

~it's exam fever right now,for whatever the result is,just remember usaha,doa,tawakal dan syukur with everything!~hehe~reminder for my ownself too!~all da best fellow friends!xoxoxoxo!



Wednesday, 8 June 2011

let go...



Tuesday, 7 June 2011

,,,


happy me,once upon a time ago~
:")
miss her,really~



Monday, 6 June 2011

quickie~




assalamualaikum,

it's been a while~yup,really am so busy with hectic-finals' fever!gives you no time to rest properly~ alhamdulillah,finished all zachots' hunting today,and only God knows how relieved i was once my topan's teacher signed my zachot's book!fuh~it's final this wednesday you see,but yet some of us still struggling to pass all the tests aka credits to get ourselves to the final~huhu~

clueless actually about what to write down here,hehe~nvm,just pray the best for me and my fellow friends will ya?will put all the efforts,may Allah ease everything~insyaAllah~He always knows the best and put all the faith to Him~YOSHA!!





it will be nabilah instead of monica,great right?heee~
sooon~
heeee~thanks mak!




Thursday, 2 June 2011

.

trust NO ONE even if u have to fall down in pain~

Monday, 30 May 2011

cute~:)



 

"everybody knows how to love but only few people know how to stay in love with one person for a very long period of time"

~it's what love means for me~



one fine,bright day,i'll found that one person who i will grow old with~
:)



p/s:got colloq besok,xhingta ape,doakn2~:)



Saturday, 28 May 2011

if i can change everything~hu~

harini terase diri sungguh loser~huhuhuhuhu~

nak kaen selimut itam tutup muke kuat2




p/s: 2 budak u aku*setakat ni lah*bakal kawen julai ni and xschoolmate jue~hehehe,
happy for them!:)


Friday, 27 May 2011

ok,sesi merapu~


salam,
dah lame tak tulis proper post, i mean tanpe keemo-faggotan~beberapa hari ni,macam2 nak jadi,n aku pon asek dok meletop cam bom sampai sakit dade ak tak pernah nak stop,haih~salah sendiri asek naek angin satu badan~and hari ni,sbb lupe bawak 1 buku kecik yang xd function,aku dh bazir 3 jam kehulu kehilir,tak dpt pape~haih~=_="~xde rezeki,but still tadi mmg meletop gile la,penat kot weh,xkesah la mmg slh aku pon,but penat still penat~huhuhu~

bercakap ttg hidup kat sini,walaupon exam byk,ak tetap malas belajar..ye ye,aku tau,dh byk kali ak kate aku pemalas and ramai dok ckp ak rajin belajar,kdg2 rase nk letak depe dlm kandang hamster pastu letak atas meje stadi aku,tengok brape kali aku bukak buku dlm mase sehari and bape byk aku tido ngn melagho~ak rase pastu br depe nak terime hakikat yang aku ni pemalas macam beruang kutub,kenyang makan,tidur xpon layan cerite~hohoho~aku tau aku teruk~aku tahu~papepon,nak tak nak,ak kene settle jugak sume exams neh sbb nak balik Malaysia kottttttttt~sape xnk balik tanah air weh,lagi2 bile tmpt ni cm bumi takung segale tension and geram aku je~yea,aku mmg x pernah OK dok sini,aku mengaku,aku cume dok melayan je hari demi hari,buku demi buku tanpe perasaan aku kat semua yang aku buat,sedih kan,ye aku mmg menyedihkan..

urm,ha,dalam kekalutan segala bagai emosi turun naek,ade la satu hari ni,aku pakai skirt labuh.hahaha!tak percaye???ye,aku nabilahzawahid pakai kain weh,tu pon sbb kakak usrah ak bagi,xknla ak nk buat pekasam kan?hehehe~kawan2 aku mmgla tgok pelik semacam,haha,maybe xpernah tgok aku pkai kot or sbb aku pompuan kepoh y xsesuai pkai ken2 neh yang basically kat sini mostly org2 usrah je pakai,hahahha! wallahualam kan,apepon,ak xkesah~hahahaha! yang aku kesah adelah bile tym aku ondaway balik turun eskelator line kelabu,adelah sorg lelaki ni,dye duk bwh aku,pstu dok pusing2 blakang tenung2 muke aku,aku pon ape ag,watlah muke yang baekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk punyela kan,ape kes nak tengok2,xpuas hati ape?pastu pas dok belek sume jerawat2 kat muke aku,dye start dok pi tenung kaen aku,dalam hati aku mmgla sumpah xnak pakai dh ken pasneh!ape kes ntah~pastu dye start ckp :

lelaki tuh: awk pakai ken tak takot ke nanti terlekat kat hujung escalator tu*sambil buat2 gaye org tersangkut kaen kat ujung escalator~

aku: urm senyap kejap,lumpy pastu ckp ha,ye2,betul tu~sambil gelak2 kecil y xde motif

lelaki tuh: angkat lah sikit kaen awk,bahaye~*buat gaye sbb muke aku cm org dr kutub utare xphm bahase

aku: ha,baek2~*angkat2 kaen smbil mamat tuh tengok aku angkat ken tu*angkat bhgn pinggang la maksud aku

tibe2,

lelaki tuh: senyum manis,menawan kalbu smbil cakap,awk sgt cantik~smbil senyum and then tanye lagi,dr mane datang gadis cantik aka aku la tu,hahaha?

aku: sambil kembang ank pecah kaen aku pakai,hahahahahhahahahahaha: sy dr malaysia

lelaki tuh: ooo,sambil senyum besar last2 aku takot

hahahaha,then dgn hati berbunge2 aku pon cabot lari sbb aku takot sebnarnye~hahahahaha!~
motif y nak disampaikan adalah kegembiraan yang aku rasai tatkala org yang xcantik,xlawo cm aku ni dipuji cantik opps sgt cantik dr org y xdikenali~mmg super happy lah tym tuh,yela,mende yang boleh kate xd makne der aka dlm angan2 kau je nak dgr,jadi realiti~ohohohoho,mmg happy lah aku tym tuh,terus balik tersengih2 smpai ke rumah~hahaha~kesimpulannya,didalam kekalutan,keserabutan,ketidaksepenuh hatian aku mengharungi hidup aku saban hari kat sini,adelah jugak bende happy yang jadi kan?hehe~

oklah,merapu panjang,ak geram si fastpasstv ni dok buat hal,nak pi cari mende laen plak nak nengok~

till then,be happy!wassalam~:)




Thursday, 26 May 2011

dammit lah!!!!!

Tuesday, 24 May 2011

quickie~:)



my roomate told me,i always have this kind of face each time i'm in front of the lappy~hahaha!

wish i can look the same while i'm reading books too~sigh~=_="


p/s; lupe bgtau,masalah dengan jantung aku agak teruk,n once kene serang skang,mmg dasyat,nothing like before,siyesly,kuku jadi biru??????xley nk bernafas lam kelas,sakit dade mencucuk2,nak pitam tgh jalan? siapa xcuak,huhuhu~doakan aku baik2 saje ye,iA,balik ni g hospital check,and this time,i'll go to a cardiologist for sure,prevention is always better than cure right?hu~


and if i got probs with my heart,mesti xde org nk kawen ngn aku kan,tsk~:"(




Sunday, 22 May 2011

hard~

it's amazing when people can stop eating rice for two months and lost 6 kilos??????huhuhuhuk~ i guess i'm the only one who gained so much weight here~huhu~

it's 22nd of May already and i have 2 weeks to go before finals and too many colloqs to be settled and yet i put no effort more than before~hu~it's not that i refuse to stay up and wake up early in teh morning,it's just that i can't,my body isn't capable of that and my mind is too tired to memorize things at midnight~haha,lame excuses,i know,i know,haih~=_="~i sleep like a baby,really,10 hours a day,yup,i'm ruining myself slowly and constantly~

i'm adapting this whole new things that happening around me,and i can do it for sure!

completely refusing any feeling from getting near to me,and i'm going to face this my way!~:)



It kicks so hard, it breaks your bones,
Cuts so deep, it hits your soul,
Tears your skin, and makes your blood flow,

it's better that you know,
love is hard~


current song in my head!~hits my heart each time i listen to it,love james morrison to the fullest!~:D






Saturday, 21 May 2011

mother teressa



“The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved.”


Cabas CAMAÏEU
well,i bought this for myself!hahaha!lawa kan???:p



a great friday indeed!~:D



Meredith: There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.




nothing much to comment on but simply love it!
:)



not to forget,had a really great time with radhi today~heeeeee!thanx babe temankan!love you!mmuaahhss!:) 
we should do more another time!heee!!



Wednesday, 18 May 2011

hugs~



but pity me,i have none for a very long time.

counting days,may the strength will always be there to keep on pretending and keep on acting like everything is okay.just for another 2 short months.dear heart,i'm counting on you,be strong kay,please~




p/s:my posts here are undoubtedly emotional and full with disappointments and this will be continued until when,i don't even sure.sorry for the inconvenience~


Tuesday, 17 May 2011

:)



Meredith: Just when we think we figured things out, the universe throws us a curveball. So, we have to improvise. We find happiness in unexpected places. We find ourselves back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way. Sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong.





and here me again,hoping, and praying to feel better and sleep well like i used to before,once upon a time ago~and when happiness is way too invisible to be seen or to be hoped for,i will just pray for tears no more.



Sunday, 15 May 2011

great lyrics!





When you lower me down
So deep that I, I can?t get out
And when you're lost, lost and alone
Yes, you'd think it was the last place
You?d come back for more

If you don't want me to leave
Then don't push me away
You'd rather blow out the lights
You can watch it all fade
But I'm going nowhere

I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
When you're closing your eyes
Cause you don't wanna love me

I'm gonna stay
You can't push me too far
There's no space in my heart
Where I don't wanna love you

And when there's no, no storm
Then how can I feel the calm?
If there's nothing, nothing, nothing left to lose
Then what is this feeling
That keeps on bringing me back to you

So I?m gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
And you?re closing your eyes
Cause you don?t wanna love me

So I'm gonna stay, yes I will
You can't push me too far
There's no space in my heart
Where I don't wanna love you

If you ask me to leave
And I walked away
We'd still be alone
And we'd still be afraid
I'm going nowhere
im going nowhere

Cause I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
And there's tears in your eyes
Cause you don't wanna love me

I'm gonna stay
All the tears that I've cried
I could leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me
I could leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me




p/s: salute lah anyone camni,hebat and hebat! coz' i'm totally incapable of that~



Saturday, 14 May 2011

:p

saya rasa orang sekeliling saya risau andai saya jadi budak jahat~huhuk~



no entry~

kinda lost everything,EVERYTHING~and i'm the one to be blamed for,yup!

isolating myownself from the world,self destruction begins now..


please,do not enter for any good/bad reasons

thank you.



Wednesday, 11 May 2011

one fine day~



am waiting for the moment to come.....



Friday, 6 May 2011

:(

as easy as it is for you,i wish i could be the same~





Wednesday, 4 May 2011

:)

Tuhan cemburukan sayang aku,rindu aku untukNya,
mungkin itu Tuhan ambil kau pergi dari hidup aku,
mungkin buat tika ini sampai saat cinta aku padaNya lebih dari segalanya,
mungkin Dia akan kembalikan kau dalam hidup aku,
atau mungkin jodoh aku dengan insan lain pula,
siapa tahu,sebab Dia pemegang segala rahsia,cuma Dia tahu ajal,maut,jodoh pertemuan itu~
Dia pinjamkan aku rasa gembira dan dia ambil gembira tu,kerna mungkin,Dia bakal beri kegembiraan lebih dari gembira yang aku ada saat ni,
Tuhan,aturan kau sungguh yang terbaik,aku tiada daya untuk sangsi,selemah-lemah hamba aku pohon ampun~
cuma pohon kekuatan buat aku dan dia dariMu~

Monday, 2 May 2011

....




and i'm officially done with everything~



talked to my mom,made me feel better






p/s: soon will be off to tsaritsino park,iA~


Sunday, 1 May 2011

labor day=tido day!:)




it's 1 may already.

prepare yourself mentally!




p/s: i found it difficult when you have no one who can understand you~sigh~:(


;)


:)
love