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salam~

ok,i'm craving for this,choc banana cake,and i'll get one once i have enough money~huhuhuk~ekonomi meleset menyukarkan keinginan untuk dipenuhi,haih~the second pic really looks so yummeyyhhhh,kan?hehehehe~nothing much to post about actually~

moge semuanya di bawah jagaanNya~moga besok lebih baik dari hari ini~
insyaAllah~
:)

plans to go!

people say it doesn't matter....

but the bitter fact is people aka men;they wouldn't want to spend the rest of his life with hideous monster aka orang utan~

and for that,although it will hurt a lot in many ways,i'm preparing my asb accaount if anything might happen~

plan well for your future,yosh!~

p/s: post mengarot but it feels so real for a monster like me~:)

vampire-me

history is repeating again?

guess what,as long as you don't mess up with me like you did before,i'll be such a nice person to you~

but if it is vice versa,you'll see the real me then~

thank you~

*bad headache,stuffy nose=no mood=stay away or else i'll suck up your blood~

snowstorm in spring?

spring with snowstorms?

they don't fit each other at all~it's already by the end of March but still heavy snow keeps on hitting my face and tell you what,i did screamed out loud in the middle of the street,refusing the fact that i have to keep on walking through it,huhu~it's hard for me,and with my skin starting to rebel with this unpredictable,strange weather,i can conclude here that it's really painful~(T___T)

i haven't pass my pharmaco yet since she wasn't here today,and even if she was there,i wasn't prepared at all~ and here it goes again,postponed colloqiums with more new topics to come,and i'm stuck back again and the cycle keeps on repeating again and again~huk~(T___T)

they said when life gives you lemon,make a lemonade out of it~huk~i wish i can make one out of it~huhuhuhu~how i wish la kan~

p/s: here are some retail therapy that i did few hours ago,browsing through hello kitty necklaces online,heee~aren't they so lovely?heee~it is a must to have one of them in my very limited collections of jewelery,hahaha~

i like!~:D

my latest obsessions i guess,hahahahahha!love them!!!xoxoxoxo!

otak sempit~

i'm giving up for my pharma this saturday, am going to postpone it to the upcoming week~seriously,i don't have the brain needed to complete all the topics and to remember all the drugs,schemes,therapeutic uses etc2 within a day.It is impossible!urghhh!!

should take a nice rest tonight and no more pressure on my small brain~

hu~goodnite,salam~

road to a better me~:)

alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah~

for being able to go through these days,i'm so grateful..:)~to be frank,when it comes to me,nabilah mohamad zawahid, life isn't that easy.my very poor ability on handling things efficiently with proper emotions makes things normally become even worse than it should be or easier to say,i love to complex things~hahaha,yep,i know,that's bad,hehe,however,all praises to Him for being there,watching over me,thank You Allah because with so many things running through my mind,exams,problems,etc2,i think lately i'm starting to manage all of these better than before,dah jadik lagi mature kot,agagagaggagaga!;p

life so far is great,being able to control rice consumption in my daily diet is an achievement which i'm very proud of.haha.because like i've said before,rice is my forever soulmate.haha. 

urm,talking about my studies,urm..okay,urm..okay okay,i know there are too many urm stated,heee,because,urm,at this rate,i can't imagine myself as a good doctor yet.it's getting so hard to memorize all of the diseases,drugs etc2.hu.and for the colloqiums aka tests or whatsoever related to that,russia is all about fate plus how close you are with the teacher,even your race or religion,well,maybe not for all of us but still,they can be part of the major contributing factors on how well you'll get your marks.but still,despite of all of those,you absolutely need to have the brain lah~hehehe~some of the teachers here are really great though~hehehe~here i am,just telling the facts and i'm not blaming anyone for my achievement so far since i realize i don't have what it takes~hehehe.and few days ago,i just got this new spirit of putting my effort on studies for the sake of Him and knowing them for my future and not because of exams anymore..my brain slightly felt lighter afterwards,hahahaha,okay,exaggerating again~:p

more studies to catch up,need to cover few subjects more,yosh! 

well,this definitely makes me feel better and i hope it does the same to you all too~:

~He puts you in the best condition which no matter how hard you think it might be,He knows very well that in the end,you'll be able to manage it!have trust in Him,pay harder and insyaAllah,everything will be just fine~

pray for me!:)~

wassalam~

hope this stays with me~

smile and believe that He knows the best~

stand up on your feet and breathe freely!

hope for a better tomorrow and give your very best in everything~

with His will,insyaAllah everything will be okay!

believe that whatever happens in because He knows what you can handle,and of course, don't have any doubt that each of His tests are  what you are capable to handle!

doa,doa dan teruskan berdoa~

moge dipermudahkan semua.

ameen~

:)

nabilah,please complaint less,and be thankful for everything that you already have around you!

they are more than enough~

:)

p/s: sorry for previous posts~

more complaints~

can i have a simply fine day please,24hours without heart aching continuously,1440 minutes for me to feel calm,happy and be able to smile throughout the short time~hu~maybe 24 hours is too much~arghhhhh!

stressed out!advice for me: please learn to be alone,forget all the sweet promise cause none of them is for real~living with big fat lies for these few years,to you,please stop your acting,i can't stand any of them anymore,seriously,i'm too tired of all of these~no more please,i beg you~

sigh~

realizing the fact that the expectations are way too much that i have none of them in the slightest amount and will never ever have in my whole life made me feel even worse than ever~urgh,having ZERO gram of self esteem right now,i shall cover myself,from top to toe with the comforter and never get out of it~damn~

i should not dream that high at the first place,in my life,there wont be stars to be landed on since the moon is forever out of my reach,sigh~should not believe that i am being accepted just the way i am,stay yourself out of any comfort zones because they are simply lies~

i'm a a person who habitually sees or anticipates the worst @ a pessimist.

warning: put yourself away or you'll get infected~

expiry date to you: 15days to go,and hope you'll make the best decision aka picking someone else but not me.it's the rightest thing,for you~

cantik~

want this really bad!it's cute kan?huhuhuhu~

urm,that's not really the main thing to be highlighted actually,hahaha~just can't stand the cuteness of it by myself je~hahaha! btw,would love to share one of many "golds" that i got from the daurah,it was womens day edition this time fyi!~(^^,)

29:69

"Dan orang-orang yang berusaha dengan bersungguh-sungguh kerana memenuhi kehendak ugama Kami, sesungguhnya Kami akan memimpin mereka ke jalan-jalan Kami (yang menjadikan mereka bergembira serta beroleh keredaan); dan sesungguhnya (pertolongan dan bantuan) Allah adalah berserta orang-orang yang berusaha membaiki amalannya."

the first verse reminded by kak wan,and it did hit me the most..

trying to be better is the main goal here,and Allah is always there,hu~it's up to me now~

the options are there,it's just that i can't open up my heart yet~

sigh

may He shows the right path,pray for the strength~

confused+stuck=urghhh!

my great companions!:)

since i'm staying alone a.k.a unable to talk heart to heart to anyone else here,hehe,watching tv series really is a must each time i'm home~even though i do have lots of studies to do,well,who really study for the entire hours right?or maybe there are few of them,but i'm nowhere near to that,since for being able to focus for half an hour without my index finger clicking on the mouse pad is already a VERY huge achievement indeed~hahahaha~so,please blame yourself when you have problems in your studies okay cik kak?:p

back to the series that i love sooo much~currently following these~:

• gossip girl s4
• grey's anatomy s7
• glee s2
• how i met your mother s6
• american idol s10
• american next top model s16
• vampire diaries s1~the latest series since i finished all of the above already~hahahaha!

top of all,grey's anatomy wins the best ever series for me!:D~and really need to find new ones since having none of them will absolutely lead me to a total boredom~

p/s:had really great time in evrasia thsi evening with him,hehehe,the food were great,but really expensive,as usual~i'm completely broke rite now,better watch out my expenses or else,i'll die in hunger~hahaha!

*okay,exaggerate~hahaha!

till then,wassalam~(^^,)v

":)"

honestly,i have these sort of feelings,sumtym...urm,better said,most of the times~

"the girl who secretly cry themselves to sleep"~

hahaha,i've done that a lot!and currently becoming this:

"the girl who secretly cry themselves because she's afraid to sleep alone,knowing that around her aren't the ones that dearest to her heart,having bad nightmares each time she closes her eyes and realizing the fact that she's a total alien in the room"~

"fine" sometimes is just a word,it's a shield and it can also be a sweet lie~

again~hahaha!

okay,to those who read my blog*even the amount is countable by fingers*,hahaha,you might notice that i keep on changing my blogger template~nah,i have this problem of feeling non-satisfied with any of them for a very short period of time,i really meant how SHORT it can get,hahaha~it's not that the blog become even prettier each time i change the background,it's just me,mengade2!hahaha!sorry,if my weird-behaviour starts to annoy anyone of you,heeee~;)

quickie for today,

get myself cirit birit due to the spicy soup which i cooked using microwave,huhuhu,so lazy me~even up until now,the stomach feels very weng~(T__T)~and fyi,for the record,i ate rice only ONCE within these 4days!!! it is a huge achievement,am soooo proud of myself,walaupon,perot asek bunyi2,masuk angin,then kentot xingat dunia,angin byk nk keluar kembali,okay,cerita kurang senonoh disitu~hahahahahahahaha!

well,everything else is absolutely normalna!hehe!and the weather currently is very nice~i love spring so much!cant wait for the pretty tulips to blossom soon!hehe!:)

till then,goodnite!salam~

:)))))

red one from sisters~♥

beautiful pink roses from him~♥

every single breath is a bliss,thank you God~alhamdulillah~:)

igtn~

"Maka sifat sabar itu adalah sikap yang baik, dan hanya Allah sahajalah tempat meminta pertolongan" 
(Surah Yusuf:18)

hidup,

kalau sabar itu tunjang akarnya,

insyaAllah,kukuhlah ia.

sabar itu,

mudah diungkap oleh lidah,

namun,

sukar menapak di hati,

pepatah Melayu ada ungkap,

di mana ada usaha,di situ ada sinar kejayaan,

Tuhan pun suka hamba yang tak jemu usaha,

betulkan niat,

perbanyakkan doa,

syukur untuk nikmatNya,

insyaAllah,terpupuklah ia~

aku hadapi masalah ni,peratus berjaya bila ada dalam situasi yang perlukan sabar itu mungkin 10%?
byk kurang,sana sini~

moge dipermudahkanNya~amin~

it was a great sunday evening~:)

briefly,i had a really great evening with ainur and radhi~heee~sayang korg sooo much lah!!mmuahhhxss!hehehe~

there were nasik lemak yang amat sodap,specially made from spartivnaya and plov,russian food cooked with love by ainur~:D~the food were awesome,and i ate a lot like hantu~hahahahahhaahhahahahahhahaha!~

had a great girl talk and we laughed like crazy,hahaha!and plus,i even had my eyes being make-up for the first time in my entire life!

it was awesome~:)

radhi,me,ainur and azhan*the one sitting on the floor~

BUZZ!

anyhow,just wanna alarm myself,that i should not take any egg this week,and of course 2plates (maximum) of rice for this whole week plus vegies everyday!seriously,i'm getting too fat,and let's not talk about the cholesterols,sigh~=_="

 and before things becoming even worse,precautions should be taken wahai nabilah!

(T___________________T)

stick to the rules or else....you know what will happen~

late nite~:)

human being basically has his/her own limit and so do I.

and unfortunately,i reached the peak today,sorry for those who might be concerned..

it was way too much for me to handle just now..

well,nothing so special going on around me,and i really miss to snap some pics,

winter is over,but the snow is still pouring down the sky,and from the news,maybe for another 5days~

russia is weird,just like their people..

nevertheless,i think am goin to miss the chill while walking fast through the snow,

you can say that i'm a weirdo too,but honestly.for me,it is definitely the BEST time for my mind to rest from anything since the only goal at that moment is to reach the metro station asap,hahahahahaha~

will update the blog with some pics later,iA~thinking about grabbing a digital camera soon!:)

even though,it feels quite lonely for this second semester,i still have great friends at class who never fail to make me laugh!love you guys sooooooooooooo much!!*eeeuuuuuw~(^____________^)

~and plus,not to forget, great companion who always there,24/7~yeke?:p~love u tooo!

selamat malam dear~

harapan~

sayu tatkala mendengar link ini~

lagi sayu bila dengar kata-kata Hamka: sungguh yang ada ini sudah harapan kita~

malah,apa yang sudah kita ada jauh  sudah lebih dari harapan kita,

hidup ini,kita sering pandang pada salah,mengomel tentang sukar,tumpu pada kurang,silap tiap sesuatu~

hidup ini,kita dambakan pada yang lebih dari ada,

hidup ini,kita lupa,

lupa yang ada itu sudah lebih dari cukup,

lupa betapa bahagianya kita kerna meski betapa derita kita satu masa lampau,namun pada saat ini, Dia telah keluarkan kita dari segala ranjau,segala perit,dan kini,tanpa kita sedar,kita masih mampu tersenyum, mampu ketawa?

aku salahkan diri aku,aku salahkan diri aku kerna syukur aku jauh lagi kecil ukurannya dari batu pasir yang berteraburan tepi pantai,

aku malu,malu kerna syukur aku datang bagai jarangnya tsunami melanda,namun pergi cepatnya bagai ombak menghempas pantai~

hari ini,hati aku tersentuh,mungkin besok lusa,hilang kembali,

sungguh aku hamba yang lemah,

Tuhan,kuatkanlah hati hamba-hambaMu ini~

sunnguh sebaik-baik pelindung itu Engkau,ya Allah,kepadaMu kami berserah,kepadaMu kami pohon pertolongan~ameen~

slap your own face please!

pengajaran hari ni yang patut dah berzaman sedar diri wahai nabilah zawahid yang dh masuk kategori ngok:

sila hidup sendiri,jangan bergantung harap pada orang laen no matter btape byk kau percaye orang tu,sbb in the end,the bitter fact is:

NOBODY REALLY CARES~